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French | Salut, je suis nouveau sur Reddit et je veux juste dire que je pense au suicide ne sais pas quoi faire S'il vous plaît aider, je ne plaisante pas ici |
English | I'm lost Reddit what do I do I'm in a pretty strange and confusing situation all my life i ve been pretty shit at math Algebra to be precise and I'm on my final term of my first semester repeat and thankfully i ve improved on all of my subjects EXCEPT Algebra I cant recall my first score on my first term but the second term result is and i ve tried everything to fix myself my mother hired so many tutors s and only one of them helped a bit me improve bit in my studies i ve tried asking friends to show me how they study and do math and that didn't help either so I decided to take things in my own hands and teach myself but i couldn't understand how to do this and that I thought of drinking a bottle of water filled with various pills s but I feel like there is a way to advance myself to G I know i ll do better here due to the subjects of your choice kinda deal which would help me in achieving my career i animation and a choice between Business math and Algebra and to make things worse my father s side of the family is paying for my school and they stated if I don't get my stupid ass to they'll stop paying my school bills and it would be over for me No school No Dream job career Full Disappointment and Anger from my mother i really just want to end it all and kill myself but something stops me from doing it I don't know what it is But I'm not sure I'm ready to face the end of this term TL Dr I suck at algebra I'm on the brink of killing myself out of disappointment and anger from my mother and my Arab family FML |
English | I need help Things are so hard and I don't have a way to regroup and rally, and my motivation is gone I have my mom and cat with me, They are better off without me |
English | I'm so tired of feeling like this Had everyone I'm about at my limit here I've ask ready-made an attempt once before so it is very possible that I'll try again So at the beginning of the year I tried to kill myself through overdosing on sleeping pills didn't work, but I slept great for the first time in months and after that everything has gone down hill from there For example my girlfriend left me I came out of the closet to my parents about being transgender and was told by my father that I'm an idiot and wrong I started cutting worse than ever before and finally to top it all off my best friend has fallen in love with me, I feel guilty about everything and it s been eating away at me, I feel like I just hurt everyone around me with the way I treat myself I feel like I'm falling apart, and it just keeps getting worse and worse with each breath I take I want it to end and I'm so close to doing just that |
French | Je suis plus fatigué de vivre Ma vie a été merde depuis que j'étais un enfant a perdu mes parents quand je vivais alors je suis resté avec ma famille qui m'a gardé dans le vide sanitaire et m'a battu tous les jours Après que j'étais loin d'eux et que les choses semblaient aller mieux, mais la dépression était toujours là et les cauchemars du passé Tout le monde me paiera à l'extérieur se sentir à l'extérieur |
French | Je n'ai pas envie de vivre Je suis déprimé depuis un an et demi avec des marées basses et élevées de penser au suicide, mais je suis sûr de pouvoir compter les jours où je n'ai pas pensé à le finir sur mes deux mains Chaque jour je pense que je vais me tuer, je vais ouvrir mes yeux, je vais à travers ma tête, j'ai envie de me lever, je vais aller dans le miroir, je vais juste aimer la vie. |
English | I've had enough want to end it all I'm about to take my Gases and this is my first time posting on Reddit because I need to speak out about this shit I hate life always have and always will Nothing ever go right for me and I can take it anymore I've cried myself to sleep for many nights and I can no longer withstand the torture that is life I'm almost confident if I was to die no one would notice a thing I want to die but I'm too afraid to end it all I'm too afraid of the pain Everyday I just hope of an accident to come along and rid me of this life I may sound stupid because I have my whole life ahead of me, but dying feels right for me |
French | Je ne sais pas ce qui n'allait pas avec moi quand j'étais enfant, mais je me stressais à propos de tout au point où je ne pouvais plus respirer et je le fais encore à ce jour. |
English | I'm not sure if I should go through with it but I'd think I'd be best ve failed literally everything in my life I have no talent in anything and I have no reason whatsoever to keep living Problem with this is I keep on hesitating I don't know why, but I do So at this point I'm not sure if I should go through with it, I think I will though I just have to try no to hesitate again |
English | Suicide Seems To Be The Only Path Left have spent years and years and years holding on to hope and whatever I hold on to as hope whether it be a new lifestyle or love or habits or whatever somehow always that hope is soured and ends up hurting me instead I am just I am so tired of this I am exhausted I feel burned out I put so much effort into improving my life and the lives of people around me, I put effort into relationships and love and all that effort throughout time never has amounted to anything but me feeling alone exhausted and miserable I've had a bad feeling this was my final year for a long while here and the way my life is going it just feels inevitable now Death is my only escape from the endless dead ends in my life from the constant struggles to improve my life and or find some semblance of happiness or contentment It all has gone nowhere, and I just feel like no matter how the deck is shuffled suicide is the inevitable end game here I'm tired I'm tired of exerting so much energy to feel better or make a better life or find love or do anything to feel happy and it's resulting in disappointment and pain I think I m going to buy a gun and give my best friend one last chance to see me in person and tie up a few loose ends leave some gifts behind and just end this suffering I really just feel like I extinguished everything and this is the only way out I don't even want to try any more I have exerted so much energy trying to have a content life just to always be in pain |
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French | J'ai fait tout est trop la fille que j'aimais et me plaisait j'étais trop d'une chatte pour lui demander maintenant elle sort avec quelqu'un d'autre raison boiteuse de mourir ya c'est personne a mon dos dans ce monde les gens disent qu'ils se soucient, mais ils ne je ne peux pas continuer sur les choses ne changera pas loin je vois tous ces messages je pense que je ne l'ai pas fait, mais alors je pense qu'il est honnête |
English | Why should I live Wasted my s no career no job no GF no friends struggling with education still living at home lots of mental problems hate my country tired of life |
French | Beau papa tu gagnes ça ne vaut plus ça fait trop mal je me bats depuis trop longtemps |
English | I find the future meaningless I used to be a top student straight A s every year in middle school my parents always had fights but they didn't result in much till my mom decided she had enough and just left me and my sister were left with my father and every single day was constant screaming at us cursing the day we were born and how our mother was a terrible woman during that time we didn't really have contact with my mother My father kept trying to find her and seek her out during all that time she was having fun with her boyfriends even bought him a car and multiple things she ended up putting herself in debt my dad say this as an opportunity to make her even more miserable and send us to live with her, we lived in multiple one room cramped places with days were we only had one meal my mother never really tried to fix her lifestyle and just kept ruining herself by going for the wrong men We somehow ended up living with my father again, and it was just another repeat of the past I developed depression started losing my grades and getting really bad scores but it wasn't to notice always kept it from him, We again ended up living with my mother and I just straight out didn't go to school any more I found it meaningless my parent don't love me my father hates me I think he's bipolar, and my mother would just ignore us unless we lived with her My father kept harassing my mother and beat me up he went to jail after that but since I took the charges off he got off after a week continued living with mom while missing school attempted suicide a couple of times she didn't do anything about it besides telling me what I did was wrong I don't even know where this is going I just need to get at least a little of my chest now I spend my days playing video games mostly league it's the only thing that blocks this shitty reality |
English | How to know if someone has killed themselves on here I guess they stop posting Is there account deleted Is there anyway a suicide can be confirmed |
English | Nobody knows what I actually go through You think you know me lol all my pictures have fake smiles on them and I cry myself to sleep so you really know nothing about me |
French | C’était mon enfance, mais bien sûr, c’était juste de l’ignorance, j’ai rapidement appris que la vie est juste aléatoire. Certaines personnes ont la chance de se sauver de mauvaises situations si elles naissent dans une famille riche. Il n’y a aucune histoire ou signification à quoi que ce soit. |
French | Suicide un autre chapitre je ne peux pas mourir rien ne fonctionne je ne peux pas sauter je ne prends jamais assez de pilules je ne peux pas couper que le monoxyde de carbone ne fonctionne pas ou je suis trop stupide et lâche pour utiliser ces méthodes correctement la dernière chose que je peux penser est la noyade pourquoi je ne meurs pas je veux cela plus que toute autre chose je me sens comme immortel vous ne savez pas combien de gens seraient heureux si je disparais juste mais rien n'est jamais assez |
English | It's just boring just want to go to sleep forever I would never genuinely kill myself because I wouldn't ever put someone through the pain of finding my body or the aftermath, but sometimes I think imagine if I got into a car crash or whatever I know it's stupid I also hate opening up to people because I feel paranoid then that they will judge me or because they've heard my inner thoughts I used to be so positive and happy and had such a zest for life, and now I just cry all the time and feel tired |
French | Je vais commencer par une brève intro Je suis et vis au Canada J'ai des putains de parents merdiques et je n'ai pas de vie curieuse Ma vie est une répétition de l'étude puis du piano et du jeu secret Oui je suis Asiatique Coréen pour être exactement en train de nager et de lire des livres classiques ennuyeux donc mes années d'adolescence ont l'air de se faire baiser et je ne pense pas que je peux me débrouiller pour vieillir. |
French | Gay et un échec dans la vie veulent mourir parce que je pense que je vais être et dans la même position exacte, je suis fauché vivre avec ma mère homophobe et ont été célibataires toute ma vie un tiers de ma vie est déjà terminée, et je n'ai rien à montrer pour cela, je crains de devenir plus vieux parce qu'il se sent comme si personne ne se soucie de ma mère. |
English | I've seen to many of these Before I get on with this I want you all to be aware that I don't care if I get upvotes or downvotes cause of what I say I'm speaking my mind and that is that so deal with it And please read it all I've seen to many people saying they're going to commit suicide and I have to say I m done with it, I don't know if people are actually debating on doing it or if they are doing it for the attention but either way it's not okay at all People go through things I know this I've been through too much shit I've been abused by my father I lost my dog that I grew up with I have so many things going on in my life right now but I'm still here I'm still alive and I'm pushing through it people may be suicidal from rejection from a crush or depression I would name more, but there is to many, and I want to get to the point You may think you have no one to go to or no one to trust but there always is someone to talk too It's not worth killing yourself no matter how old you are I if you need to talk then I am here I will listen to whatever you have problems with I know it sounds weird for me to say that since no one even knows me but if you need to talk we can trade things that happened to us and our names to prove that we've been through things and you're not alone People care and so do I So please reconsider and think of you re options before you decide to kick the bucket |
French | Même quand j'ai des jours parfaits, je pense à me tuer, j'aurais aimé ne jamais naître, j'aurais aimé me tuer il y a longtemps, je pense que c'est vraiment mal de mettre un enfant dans ce monde avec un esprit gravement foutu, les gens me disent qu'ils m'envient toujours parce que je travaille dans une compagnie de fusée super excitée, je veux voir les gens du lycée, et ils ne sont pas fâchés de savoir. |
French | Le suicide ne quittera pas mon esprit si souvent aux urgences au cours des derniers mois parce que je crains de me blesser, je suis resté avec un voisin depuis quelques semaines parce que je ne me sens pas en sécurité, et il était préoccupé par tous les appels d'ambulance que j'avais faits, alors même si je ne suis pas prêt à me suicider, je me soucie vraiment du bébé et le garder en sécurité. |
French | J'ai marché sur les voies ferrées pendant une heure il y a quelques jours, j'étais sur les voies ferrées pendant une heure en attendant d'en finir, je me suis ennuyé, et un train n'est jamais venu, alors je suis rentré à la maison, je suis tellement en colère contre moi-même et je regrette de rentrer à la maison si j'étais resté quelques minutes de plus, un train serait venu. |
French | Rien ne m'excite pour l'avenir et le présent ne veut pas d'une petite amie femme Je ne veux pas d'enfants Je n'aime pas travailler Je n'aime pas faire quelque chose Je ne veux pas d'amis Je déteste ma famille Je ne veux pas aller à l'école Je ne veux pas aller au magasin Je ne veux pas me nourrir Je n'ai plus de motivation Je ne veux pas vieillir Je ne veux pas vivre dans mon corps laid |
English | Constant suicidal thoughts anxiety OCD I've had a very long history with social anxiety and bouts of depression, but nothing like this For the past three months I have been overcome with severe anxiety and obsessive thoughts It all stemmed from a few events that I'm obsessing about in the past spare you the details that in hindsight make me very uneasy to say the least I've spoken to my psychologist and psychiatrist about it, and they have both reassured me that what happened is not that bad but I can't shake these feelings of intense guilt and shame They say it's symptomatic of OCD and since then I've been put on a cocktail of mirtazapine Effector and olanzapine Seroquel for anxiety but it isn't making any difference I feel like giving up Everyday I wake up to panic and misery and the only thing that makes feel better is thinking of ending it I even admitted myself to a mental health rehab for a month and although there were good days there the suicidal thoughts and intense anxiety came back quickly They seem impossible to evade My life has completely fallen to pieces and it's now starting to seriously effect others in my family which is something I can't bare to see If I ever did something to myself it would destroy them but my existence is just pure never ending suffering at the moment I don't even know why I'm reaching out because I feel like nothing can change the situation I'm in I just need to see if anyone else has eventually gotten through something similar Thanks |
English | I'm scared shitless for my friend Her texts were very short and to the point they're normally not like the She recently made a post in r vent apologizing about things that shouldn't be apologized for She's told me that she's had suicidal thoughts and stuff so I have a feeling about what's going on here She doesn't seem to want to talk I told her that I'm always here for her if she wants to And she didn't want to talk about anything I'm really scared for her, I just want to help |
French | Trois tentatives infructueuses cette année ne cessent d'essayer et d'échouer J'ai l'impression de ne pouvoir en parler à personne, je suis si seule avec mes pensées et je veux continuer à essayer depuis que je l'ai été et je m'en occupe toujours La vie est le cadeau le moins gratifiant et me suce tout. |
French | J'espère que quelqu'un qui lit ça, c'est physiquement douloureux, je ne peux pas penser, alors IDK quoi dire ça fait mal si je pouvais penser alors peut-être que je pourrais parler aux gens pour me sentir mieux, mais non je ne peux pas demander un câlin, mais les gens que je connais ne me dérange pas parce que je suis ennuyeuse parce que je ne veux pas que les gens pensent que je suis normale. |
French | Je veux juste en finir putain il n'y a rien d'autre à dire juste droit au but |
English | I m at a party and I've never felt so bad in my life I'm taking meds for my depression and all I thought everything was going well then a friend i haven't talked to in years invited me to a party I accepted because I was bored, and he insisted Every progress I made I'm the last months with my psychiatrist disappeared I feel so depressed and suicidal, and I am taking meds talking to a therapist, and I am at a fucking party Why do I feel so bad why do I lie in the couch for hours straight while everyone else is dancing and pitying me I feel like this will never end I always end up depressed and suicidal no matter what I do and I tried everything I feel good for some time them I fall down again I'm tired I almost killed myself on the the of July Next time will be for good |
French | J'en ai tellement marre de vivre pour le bien des autres Je ne vais même pas me donner la peine d'utiliser un jetable Je m'en fous, je n'ai aucune motivation pour continuer à vivre, je n'aime pas tout ce que j'avais l'habitude de jouer à des jeux vidéo, mais ils ne sont plus amusants, je regardais des émissions de télévision et des films, mais ils ne m'intéressent plus. |
English | I'm here for you, I know what you are feeling I've experienced an enormous amount of loss recently I've posted here before reaching out for myself I experienced more loss only just days ago My entire family is gone But it isn't about me today I recognize that the worst part is with feeling alone and even when you speak with someone knowing that their support comes with a lack of true knowledge of just how awful what you are going through actually is So from one broken person to another I am here for you Talk to me |
French | Mon ami M m'a contacté hier soir en me disant qu'il se sentait déprimé et pensait à finir les choses. Je ne sais pas ce que je devrais doser. J'ai rencontré cet ami. Nous l'appellerons James par l'intermédiaire d'un de mes amis. |
French | Je ne peux plus continuer à vivre comme ça, juste vouloir mourir et tout ce que j'ai essayé a échoué, je n'ai pas de vie et pas d'amis car je les ai tous repoussés, j'ai juste besoin d'être mis hors de ma vie misérable une fois pour toutes. |
English | Hey I need some advice need medical advice on the substance mirtazapine is it a good way to die painlessly any other non-prescribed advices that I can get my hands on in the UK easily |
French | Je suis un gros retard de la décharge Je n'ai pas d'amis proches et je déçois tout le monde Je savais que je ne pensais même pas que quelqu'un serait triste si je me tuais Je veux dire ou les gens font probablement semblant parce qu'ils se sentent obligés mais personne ne se soucie vraiment Je n'ai rien à vivre pour ça ne serait pas si mal mais mes parents de déréalisation et l'école me baise Je suis seulement |
English | I feel like I've done all I can to try to stop these thoughts but nothing works I've been depressed and suicidal for about years now maybe a little longer I will give you all some of my life history I had multiple parents growing up most of them all hating each other I feel like I never really had a place I felt was home I moved at points in my life where it made school extra hard I don't have any long time childhood friends because of this After high school I attempted to kill myself I hated my new stepfather my mom never stood up for me, and it made me scared to come out So all through high school I had to keep it all to myself, and it got to be too much I guess The night I made the attempt was the last night I have spoken to my mother since I moved to my father s house I still kept my thoughts inside because I was scared of everything How people would react would it really make me feel better to transition and worried about how difficult the whole process is I kept it all in for years I was getting to the point where I couldn't deal with life and was scared I'd try something again So I told my stepmom first who had me tell my father because she said she wouldn't be able to keep it from my father They weren't hostile towards the idea more worried and confused We started going to LGBT group meetings I started transitioning almost right after I came out So it s been about two years since I started transitioning I got new clothes changed my name found a doctor and started hormones changed my gender legally etc. I'm happier than I was but it didn't make my depression much better Over time I've started to hate myself because I feel fake I feel like people know I see people stare at me, I've been called names while in the mall and other demeaning things Sure I feel marginally happy with my body compared to before but there are so many things I feel are harder to do now I hate talking on the phone I get cisgendered frequently while on it, I could go on forever about all of this The point is I feel stuck I definitely would never go back I couldn't But I don't really feel like I'm real I have stopped caring about myself more and more I sit at my computer all day and sleep that's about it, I was already thin but I've been losing more and more weight My doctor thinks I might have diabetes too which doesn't help because if I do have it I'll not care enough to monitor it I have had social anxiety which has been getting worse I'm too afraid to even order a pizza now I feel really overwhelmed with everything right now, and I feel like I have no one to go to My dad already worries about me and his life is so stressful I don't want to add extra stress My best friend told me a few months ago that I should stop blaming all my problems on being trans even saying she is jealous of my life So now I don't really want to approach her with intimate feelings anymore because she doesn't seem to empathize My psychiatrist even agreed with my friend which instantly made me feel shitty I've seen therapists psychiatrists over the years and none of them have seemed to help I've been on all sorts of different meds and there isn't really much effect I'm supposed to make an appointment with a trans experienced therapist whom my doctor referred me to It s in Toronto so I have to pay money and ride a bus and then navigate my way through the huge city alone I've put off making the appointment because of that I've been thinking about attempting again almost every night for the last few weeks and I'm scared I hope that's enough about me for you guys to feel informed enough to offer advice help I can always share more and answer questions |
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French | J'ai vingt ans, je ne suis pas assez bien, et j'ai regardé ma mère jeter un couteau à mon père, j'ai sept ans, je suis divorcé, j'ai divorcé, j'ai divorcé, j'ai divorcé, j'ai divorcé, j'ai dit à ma mère qu'il ne voulait pas de garde, j'ai neuf ans, j'ai épousé le gars qu'elle a trompé, j'ai perdu mon frère. |
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English | Please help Hello I'm posting this on behalf of a loved one my girlfriend I am in my late teens, and she is in her early twenties She has an incurable condition which causes her constant chronic pain and in many respects makes her life crap She is also extremely depressed and will talk about suicide with me quite openly She quite often expresses the desire to jump off a cliff or purchase a firearm and shoot herself with it, I live in the UK, so this would be pretty hard She hasn't made any attempts recently, but I know that she has jumped off of a building before and that she has tried overdosing on codeine painkillers on more than one occasion She says that she doesn't want to live even if her disease is cured because the part of her that cared about living died a long time ago She says that she is trying to think of a method of killing herself that will be effective that will leave no chance of her becoming a vegetable on life support for the rest of her life I have tried numerous times to get her some help be it from therapy or anti depressants, but she has none of it After years of this I reached my wits end today and told her sister and father all about it because I genuinely feared for her life I know I did the right thing and hope that they can get her some help, but she seems so far gone to me, She also found out about me telling and said that she can never trust me with anything again and for a moment wanted to never speak with me again I'm exhausted and emotionally drained and just need some help here What am I supposed to do |
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English | Are suicide hotlines effective at all They never seem to offer me anything but a person to talk to The safety planning and talk about going for a walk or reading a book is ineffective |
English | I feel alone in this world feel alone in this world and I wish I didn't feel like dying when I get panic attacks I'm crying horribly right now because I wish someone would care that I'm sad I wish someone would give me encouraging words Why am I cursed to be a sensitive human Why can't I be emotionless and not saddened by everything sad that happens to me, I'm alone I've always been alone There isn't a single human on this earth who cares that I'm sad I just want comfort It isn't fair that I am naturally a sensitive person in a cruel world Why am I never good enough Why am I sad why am I not talented why am I not pretty All I want right now is to be swallowed up whole I don't binge-eat I don't drink I don't do drugs I don't self harm I don't do anything that's considered self-destructive I don't have any outlet when I feel this way Why am I cursed to not have an outlet Why do I want to be numb and swallowed up whole yet not have the guts to have an outlet like that Please I just want encouraging words I want a sign that someone out there cares about me |
French | C'est peut-être la paille finale Maintenant, avant que nous commencions à obtenir de l'aide Je suis légèrement suicidaire alors c'est pourquoi je suis en train de poster ici Ma petite amie du mois mais à côté du point qui a rompu avec moi hier parce que je suis froide et possessive Elle a dit que je ne suis pas en bonne santé Je comprends encore pourquoi je suis fou Elle a beaucoup pensé comme moi Si elle a été déprimée J'ai été anxieux |
English | Is there any reason to tell people I'm suicidal I mean seriously what would it accomplish I spend most of my days just wanting to be dead how could anyone actually help My family My parents don't believe in depression or treatment they'll just think they failed another kid My friends What can they do besides pity their poor friend and worry about me even more My teachers I'm already a failure I can hardly face my teachers as it is why would I want them knowing I'm beyond help What would anybody do Call someone before I hurt myself I'd kill myself before I get checked into the asylum here I just don't know what to do anymore, but I know I'd rather die than wake up tomorrow |
English | Lost all sense of positivity can't feel happy any more I hate anyone who spreads positivity it's annoying it doesn't help anyone they only list the reasons we shouldn't do it that make us want to give up and try a new life like you'll hurt the ones you love living worth it in the end we have no one to love and if its worth it in the end killing ourselves will get to the end faster than the pain and suffering we have to go to people who are happy piss me off there's nothing to smile about there's a fucking pandemic that has been going on for a year when it could have been ended in a month if everyone fucking wore a mask everyone s favorite actors are dying games and music don't feel the same if life s about the little things those little things are fucking microscopic |
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English | First time posting The last time I can remember being this suicidal was in high school is years ago Living at home was hard I was always sure I grew up in an abusive home fights turned physical way too often everyone hated each other but I felt uncomfortable labeling myself as abused when it was caused by fights I was mutually or mostly accountable for starting My parents didn't just get mad st work and come home and beat me How could I be abused when I'm the one that made my family this upset at me My brother had has narcissistic personality disorder I had had depression and anxiety Not a good mix He was the worst of the family and enjoyed reminding me of how much stronger he was than me Fast forward to my senior year of college and life has seen little to no improvement I have no friends Maybe one or two, but I am not and never will be a priority I have been in love with him for years, and today he tells me he doesn't feel the same and hasn't for s long time I feel stupid that this is the breaking point for me, I'm a naive and dramatic girl because I let a boy determine my happiness I do not remember life without him, I don't remember life without our dogs The only thing holding me back is knowing my dogs will think I abandoned them and hate them if I go I no longer enjoy simple pleasures I no longer enjoy anything I think constantly of death and crave an end My parents can't stand me I can't stop arguing with people I have horrible road rage I argue with people on Facebook over politics I do things I know make people hate me, but I can't change myself I have grown to realize that my personality is very easy to dislike, and I have tried and failed many times to change it I make people angry I do not bring joy or happiness into anyone s life I feel like people would be happier when I m gone And sure there will be people who are upset st first death is upsetting But when it subsides they will no longer have to pretend to like my personality I won't upset people any more They can be happier, and they will eventually understand my choice will be for the best I just don't see s benefit for anyone of my existence |
English | Nothing left to lose Currently years graduated from BA with honors and still working a shit minimum wage paying job I hate the situation I am in I can't afford to live on my own everyone I encounter is a complete piece of shit with their judgmental attitudes in this overly excessive affluent town I am surrounded by in my neighborhood which happens to be excluded from the city despite living less than a mile away from the municipal building What I am getting at is that this is America I can buy a gun no problem whatsoever I want to end my life So why should I not take out those who have wronged me in the process Nobody bats an eye over bloodshed of American lives over oil so what's the difference Help me understand why I shouldn't follow in the steps of our great government leaders |
English | I just want to be happy am too tired to try to kill myself but at the same time just want the pain to end |
English | It's my birthday in days Makes sense to end it on the day when it all started I will be and literally didn't do shit in my life These past years have been a nightmare for the most part I'm a disappointment to my family myself and my non-existing friends Hopefully I won't pussy out at the last moment like I did months ago |
English | I look at my room window and wonder if a simple jump would solve everything But I feel sorry for my sister and parents |
English | I'm in the bathtub with a knife in my hands listening to music That s it I'm sorry I'm horrible and can't be here any more it s time for me to go |
French | Je me noie encore parce que je sais que j'ai beaucoup grandi, mais ma santé mentale est si effrayante que je me sens si irréel et c'est comme s'il y avait un bourdonnement autour de ma tête et que ma poitrine me faisait mal. |
English | Hey you stop scrolling Hey I know you may be going through a hard time right now, and it may suck but just know that you'll get through this strong At the end of it all you'll come out stronger than you started Just know I'm always here for each and every one of you I may not know you guys but that doesn't mean I don't care about you, I love all of you guy Recovery takes time some people have won the battle and others are still dealing with it, but I believe that they'll get through it If any of you need to talk I'm here for you anytime of the day Just know that all of you guys are amazing human beings, and you were put on this earth for a reason Life may seem hard but trust me it gets better one way or another Stay strong everyone I believe in you guys I wish you guys the best |
English | Subconsciously trying to kill myself ve tried to kill myself once in the past and I have a history of hurting myself to deal with intense stress I'm living with intense stress for extended periods of time now I keep myself from hurting me but as a result I react in weird self harming ways and I'm afraid it'll end up turning me into a cripple and possibly hurting innocent people I like riding my bike and recently I occasionally have the urge to kill myself popping into my head Like not slowing down while driving towards a crossroads It could be so easy Then there s moments where I subconsciously disregard my safety pick pointless fights etc. Just an hour ago I almost got hit by a car the car owner was a little shocked and pretty mad and when he yelled asking whether I want to fucking die the answer in my mind was Yeah I guess so Not always are other people involved sometimes I may just be on a mountain road heading downhill and considering not hitting the brakes This already happened once, and I ended up breaking my right arm and hand with abrasions and bruises all over my body The medics were pretty surprised my head was unscathed which seems to have been pure luck or maybe survival instinct IDK TL;DR I'm resisting the urge to kill or hurt myself, but I regularly experience brief moments where I consciously or subconsciously expose myself to great danger I'm afraid to end up harming other people or ending up as a cripple rather than dead |
French | Je me sens seul À ce stade, je n'ai pas d'amis, ils m'ont tous fantasmé, je n'exagère pas, je n'ai personne à part mon petit ami. Comme mon petit ami est merveilleux, je ne peux pas laisser la pression de lui être la seule personne de ma vie être pesée sur lui, je ne peux pas toujours compter sur lui pour être là, il a ses propres amis et d'autres choses qui prennent son temps. |
English | Anybody know of any good suicide hotline s I wanted to know if anyone had a good suicide hotline that they've called personally the last time I called one it seemed to do more harm than good and I don't know where else to ask I think the one I called was the generic US one from like the first google search and I don't want to call someone shitty again Thanks |
English | I really shouldn't want to die but I can't help that I do M I'm so nervous about even typing this out because in many ways I feel I don't belong posting here but I don't know where else to reach out I'll start off by saying that my life couldn't be better I don't have many friends but the few I have are very deep I grew up in a loving home and I am very close to both my parents and younger sister I have plenty of hobbies like fishing photography and rock climbing College is starting in a little over a month but I'm excited to study psychology I have slight social anxiety but nothing too crippling Yet every moment of downtime the only thing I can think about is putting a bullet through my head I'm so scared because everything could be going right in a day but the moment I'm alone with my thoughts a wave of dread and panic comes over me and the only thing I can think of is how I can get my hands on a firearm It's terrifying When I get back to an activity or keep busy in any way I feel on top of the world but now I know I have to keep moving to avoid seriously dark thoughts I just want the freedom to relax on a chair without thinking about ways to make people hate me so they won't miss me when I'm dead I know I shouldn't be feeling this way because nothing incredibly traumatic has happened in my life and I m in a loving environment I just want these terrible thoughts to stop I've been going to therapy for about months now I started because of anxiety I haven't told her about my thoughts because I'm so afraid to go back to the hospital again I've told my school psychologist about my suicidal thoughts many months ago and had to spend the night at the hospital The experience was so terrifying for both me and my mother and I feel uncomfortable going back I'm also very hesitant to take medication because I'm afraid I might lose my personality if I m medicated too much I can't tell anyone either because I would be sent right to the hospital or told that I shouldn't be suicidal because my life is so perfect Sorry if my thoughts seem all over the place I hope someone can give me some guidance as to where to go from here |
French | Qu'est-ce que je ne sais pas pourquoi je ressens des moments de tristesse Même eu une bonne journée aujourd'hui, mais je ne peux pas garder les voix dans ma tête, je ne suis pas dans une phase suicidaire, juste avoir le sentiment que si je suis vivant ou mort, rien d'autre ne me fait confiance, même ceux que je fais. |
French | Je ne peux plus rien faire de bien, peu importe à quel point j'essaie, peu importe ce que je fais ou ce que je dis, je ne peux plus rien faire de bien aux yeux des autres, je ne suis rien de plus qu'un échec à travers et à travers je suis juste un échec solitaire et indigne qui aurait dû mourir il y a des mois chaque fois que je pense que les choses vont mieux, je finis par me maudire et les choses deviennent tellement pires. |
English | I m and I like a year old I should died haven't acted on it, but I do like her and I'll never act on it, but I still know it's wrong, and I think I should just die because I'm a monster |
English | Worst Luck have terrible luck with finding people on here to talk rant to I have posted on here a couple of times before and have been talking to some people but most just stop replying Last time I posted was a month ago Long story short I have been suicidal since I was in the grade I have tried killing myself multiple times I hate everything about that part of my life I have to hide the way I feel every day to fit in with everyone else I play video games to forget about the thoughts I have I think about killing myself I have dreams about it, I think about while in my classes I think about it everywhere If I am in a tall building I think of jumping if I am driving I think of just running into anything and everything I have slit my wrists and I tried to hang myself I have being to multiple counselors I have seen psychiatrists I have been on different kinds of medicine I am ready to give up Almost years of thinking of killing myself I really don't want this to go on |
French | Je veux aller au lit Chaque fois que je suis réveillé par mon alarme, j'ai une grosse envie de moi-même en train de sauter devant un train, mais je ne le ferai pas parce que ça va mieux avec le jour où je déteste l'école, je veux juste que je vomisse terriblement et je ne peux pas me motiver à faire ne serait-ce qu'un seul morceau de travail le lendemain, ou bien je me sens comme si j'étais. |
French | Je n'ai jamais été aussi proche de la fin, j'y ai toujours pensé, mais je pensais que je ne pouvais pas à cause de ma famille, mais je n'y pense même plus. La seule chose qui me retient est le fait que ça pourrait aller mieux. |
French | Je ne pense pas que je veux mourir, mais je suis définitivement fatigué de vivre et aujourd'hui serait le jour idéal pour mourir Pour le contexte HTTPS WWW Reddit com r self comments pp rd aujourd'hui est mon bal de promo senior et je ne suis pas allé Je pense vraiment que je vais être un laide perdant solitaire pour toujours |
French | Je ne suis pas suicidaire dans le sens où je veux me tuer, mais je suis déprimé, je ne veux pas mourir, mais parfois je pense à quel point il serait plus facile de disparaître, vous savez que je me sens comme ça est commun, mais je suis fatigué de l'avoir rester dans ma tête et je voulais juste le faire sortir là-bas. |
French | Je vais dormir s'il vous plaît pour tout ce qui est bon et saint, laissez-moi mourir s'il vous plaît, je vous en prie, vous m'avez tout fait, et vous ne pouvez pas me laisser avoir cette seule chose s'il vous plaît. |
French | Je déteste mon corps tellement que je ne peux plus le supporter Ce n'est même pas dû à l'embonpoint ou au super maigre C'est juste que tout est vraiment bizarre et mal proportionné Je n'ai jamais rien vu d'autre comme ça, je suis sûr qu'il doit y avoir un problème médical sous-jacent, mais même si je découvrais ce que c'était, il n'y a rien à faire. |
English | it's a roller coaster that won't end this happens every couple of months or so I have depression and anxiety I would like an actual assessment but that's for another discussion I'm in the middle of a deep low and I just am tired of the never ending cycle I feel everyone would be much better if I wasn't around or reliable I've been out sick for three days now stomach flu plus this worsening deep depression I'm so tired of living nothing will ever change nothing will ever get better doctors will never listen it's all a business anyway I work in health care there is nowhere to go |
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English | I want to disappear have a family, so I really can't do anything even though I want to My public image has been completely destroyed I have a terrible reputation I'm always anxious I'm depressed rarely I have a good day and think this ll actually work out in the end I have no reason to be except my family I'd either go somewhere far, far away though that wouldn't fix my problem or make me happy or I'd kill myself because that would end my terrible existence My life s been a mess since my childhood My friends are there for me, they offer me their help but why would I accept it when it doesn't even matter what I make of myself and what I think of myself when I'm an absolute nobody A disgrace I'm really ashamed of myself and I don't want to wake up in the morning I don't want to talk to people I don't want people to look at me know that someone like me exists I hate my life I hate myself I don't want to work on my future self when I'm an absolute zero |
English | What do you think happens after death I just want a take on the afterlife from ordinary people Personally I think there's a strong possibility that it's not just unconsciousness Some other realm such as heaven or nirvana or perhaps reincarnation is what I have in mind What do you think |
English | Invisible don't understand why no one hears me |
French | Je ne comprends pas la pensée peut-être si je viens de commencer avec un nouveau départ que les choses seraient automatiquement mieux rien n'est mieux je suis toujours stressé, et je ne sais même pas pourquoi je n'ai pas d'amis à parler de cela ma famille est trop occupé avec mon autre soeur se sentir horrible je sens que cette saison est pire que la dernière je n'ai pas d'espoirs je ne veux pas que tout le monde m'ignore et chaque jour je suis plus |
English | My wrists and hands Two years ago I tried to commit suicide by slitting my wrists and I fucked up both my wrists forever and didn't fucking die either Ugh I'm so fan pathetic I can't even do a single thing properly |
French | Je déteste ma personnalité sentir comme je suis très faible je parle à peine de choses normales je viens seulement sur Reddit pour gémir sur mes problèmes je n'ai même pas la capacité de faire un commentaire sur d'autres choses je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles je ne peux pas avoir de relations sexuelles |
French | De quoi avons-nous besoin Ce dont nous avons besoin, c'est d'un abri Nous avons besoin de nourriture et d'argent Nous avons besoin d'un emploi Nous avons besoin d'amis et de famille Nous avons besoin d'un passe-temps |
French | Est-ce que la thérapie aide vraiment ce qui se passe à la thérapie Comment est-ce et est-ce que cela aide |
French | Moins cher de existant m désolé j'ai remorqué ce rite en espagnol, mais je veux me tuer moi moins mater y cher de exister Pas de val go NASA soja ARN Basra un fraude un grossier Que pas de vale NASA Nadia moi inviter une NASA Pas de consignation tribale en lo studio PQ soja un ago y mediocre Que la guitar ne soit pas la meilleure |
English | Nothing excites me about the future and the present don't want a girlfriend wife I don't want children I don't like working I don't enjoy doing anything I don't want friends I hate my family I don't want to go to school I don't want to go to the store I don't want to feed myself I don't have motivation I don't want to grow old I don't want to live in my ugly body I don't want to talk I don't want to breathe I wish I was never born So I have no business staying alive anymore |
English | I m alone have been depressed for a long time now About years It was bad but I could manage because of my friends I also had the help of a girl that loved me a lot We dated for years But she left me for another one All of my friends are gone since college I don't have any friends in my college I don't have any friends I've been thinking about killing myself for years now I'm worried the time has come I have a small gun shoots small lead bullets but I'm sure the gun is too weak to do any real damage But I can't stop thinking about shooting in my head I've been thinking about going out visit the center of the town and see if I can buy a gun from the black market I have also thought about slitting my wrists but I've read that it's painful, and I don't have any drugs at home besides my prescribed medication I have thought about throwing myself out of the window But my apartment is on the first floor and the fall might not be long enough to be lethal I have thought about taking all the pills Kill me with antidepressants I think it wouldn't be painful My point is I'm lonely I spend most days crying myself to sleep I can barely get out of bed Why shouldn't I kill myself |
French | Ce n'est pas amusant de se détester et d'essayer d'ajouter de la nourriture et de gagner des kilos Pathétique Ive a ces seins d'homme pathétique double menton Stretchmarks je me détestais sans eux et je me méprise avec eux Mais la nourriture semble être l'un de mes seuls domaines de confort C'est une épée à double tranchant qui me tuera un jour Puis-je obtenir des conseils sur la façon dont les gens |
French | Je veux juste parler S'IL VOUS PLAT Hey Quelqu'un peut m'aider Je suis perdu et coincé Je dois en parler |
English | Is there something I'm missing Sorry I don't want to be an attention whore but I just want to make sure there is no flaw in my logic before I make a permanent decision I really don't see what the big deal of killing my self would be I made a pros cons list I'm a weak lazy selfish person and I think for me, it might be a better decision Here is the list I wrote up Pros I'm going to die anyway to the same exact outcome Save myself years of loneliness and pain Quit while you're ahead save your self a lot of work Cons Devastate friends amp family But they'll all be dead within the century anyway so in the long run it doesn't matter Miss out on fun but the probability of me ever having fun is very low plus even then it will all be lost anyway when I eventually die This isn't a hasty decision people say time heals all wounds, so I've given them a chance but it s been over two months I've dug my self a deep hole it will take years to climb out and I'm not sure if it's worth the hard work especially when life outside the hole doesn't look appealing |
French | Je commence à planifier mon suicide Il devient vif et je perds tout ce que je dois vivre pour combien de temps ai-je |
French | Aide Très grave question voir mon conseiller régulièrement, et je veux être honnête avec elle, mais j'ai besoin de savoir s'ils vont prendre mon mois de moi si je lui dis que je suis d'avoir des pensées de suicide amp auto-mutilation S'il vous plaît répondre cela a été bugging moi pour exactement mois amp Je ne veux pas perdre ma fille |
French | En y réfléchissant et avoir le plan parfait maintenant En raison de problèmes d'argent, je pense que je vais me voir sortir de ce trou assez bientôt, j'ai un grand plan cette fois aussi |
English | Why the fuck does everything always go wrong Fuck my fucking life it's always something every time I'm happy every single fucking time |
English | I've given up trying to be happy, and I just need someone to listen have nobody else I can say this to, so I'm putting it here I used to have someone who made every day better I was happy then but they re gone now They never really cared about me, and now I know that the happiest period of my life was nothing but a lie I loved her more than anything in the world, and now I don't think I'll ever be able to feel the same way about anyone again I've wasted my life sitting alone hunched over in front of a computer instead of getting out there and living my life I've never been to a party gotten drunk hooked up with someone, and it feels like if I don't soon I never will But I don't know how I don't know anyone who would let me tag along or make sure I'm doing it safely and I'll end up spending the rest of my life regretting having never had these experiences I've been in such a bad place these last few months hat I've fucked up the rest of my life too My grades have all dropped and I've missed the deadline for my university applications anyway so I'm essentially just thrown my life away My entire family is disappointed in me because they all believe I could ve done so well for myself but none of them understand how badly I'm struggling with everything I have nothing to live for any more I can't fall in love any more I'll spend my life wishing I was someone else and any chances of getting my dream job are down the drain I just want all the pain and hopelessness to go away I want to stop being miserable and the only way I know how is to stop living altogether I'm planning on doing it next weekend after I settle a few things first Then I can finally be free |
English | PayPal balance suspended from a scam haven't eaten in a while things going bad I ran a business it doesn't matter which I was scammed by a big client of mine and won the cases, but they kept reopening them till my balance was frozen I don't want to write much as I never thought this would happen to me, and it just feels surreal I haven't eaten in a while I can't cover the negative balance of or so and have cash left I try to reason with PayPal, but they take a week to do anything every time I'm thinking I could try work for food I don't know everything has been going against me and I just don't want to live any more I don't think I'll kill my self but I'm having the thoughts run through my mind |
English | I need help two days ago my fiancé said her feelings have changed We were supposed to get married in August were together years before this She is my best friend and the love of my life and now she's completely excommunicated me She said i didn't do anything that it was all her and that she needs to do this to feel right All of my life plans and aspirations were involved with her I'm I feel completely alone now and cannot get any feeling other than the most intense anxiety and pain from anything I can't see any good reasons to keep living in this pain I'm so early into it, I feel like I'm going to hurt this bad forever I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety when I was in my teens I didn't ever feel normal until months ago when I finally found a good medicine I feel like this has undone everything I feel my entire life is ruined I am back to square one, and I would rather just kill myself then try to put these pieces back together I don't think I can put these pieces back together If I can ill be a broken person I don't understand why I would want to live like this through this I really don't want to die, but I see no other way a to get away from how bad I feel like how bad I feel will kill me anyway so I might as well just get it over with Please someone help me |
French | Je suis perdu, je ne sais plus quoi faire, je continue à espérer que les choses vont s'améliorer, mais ils ne le font jamais à long terme, il y a tellement de pensées dans ma tête, je suppose que c'est dur de réaliser que je ne suis pas le héros de l'histoire, je n'ai pas besoin d'avoir une fin heureuse, je n'ai jamais cru que tout le monde le ferait mieux. |
French | Je vais injecter du gramme d'héroïne et de surdose dans quelques jours et je n'ai pas eu quelqu'un pour parler à un homme je vis avec ma petite amie que j'aime tellement mais je vis avec la dépression et je peux dire que je tue son esprit je vais me droguer au fil des ans et je ne suis jamais allé chez un médecin et j'ai fini par avoir de l'héroïne. |
French | Le suicide est la seule option qui reste quand quelqu'un essaie activement de ruiner votre vie quand vous avez déjà le suicide MDD est la seule option ma mort est la seule chose qui va les faire arrêter comment puis-je obtenir ma famille à accepter et à comprendre que |
English | Sorry movie going to walk off into the woods and kill myself tonight I'm so fucking behind on schoolwork My mom just yells at me to get it done but no one will help me I've been to the hospital twice now and that never helps I've cut so much today my whole body is numb I'm so fucking done I honestly hope there is nothing after death The only one I feel bad for is the one who finds me |