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What is it about them?
I must be missing something
They just keep doing nothing
Too intoxicated to be scared
Better off without them
Theyre nothing but unstable
Bring ashtrays to the table
And thats about the only thing they share
Im in their secondhand smoke
Still just drinking canned Coke
I dont need a Xanny to feel better
On designated drives home
Only one whos not stoned
Dont give me a Xanny, now or ever
Can you check your Uber rating? Oh my god
Wakin up at sundown
Theyre latе to every party
Nobodys ever sorry
Too inebriated now to dance
Morning as they come down
Their pretty heads are hurting
Theyre awfully bad at learning
Make the same mistakes, blame circumstance
Im in their secondhand smoke
Still just drinking canned Coke
I dont need a Xanny to feel better
On designated drives home
Only one whos not stoned
Dont give me a Xanny, now or ever
Please dont try to kiss me on the sidewalk
On your cigarette break
I cant afford to love someone
Who isnt dying by mistake in Silver Lake
What is it about them?
I must be missing something
They just keep doin nothing
Too intoxicated to be scared
Hmm, hmm
Hmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Come down
Hurting
Learning |
You can pretendi you dont miss me
You can pretend you dont care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Oh, what a shame, Im not there
You can pretend you dont miss me
You can pretend you dont care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Well, what a shame, Im not there
What is it you want?
You can lie, but I know that youre not fine
Every time you talk
Its all bout me, but you swear Im not on your mind
You can pretend you dont miss me
You can pretend you dont care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Oh, what a shame, Im not there
Everybody knows
You and I are suicide and stolen art
Pretty mama sews
Stitches into all your bitches broken hearts
You can pretend you dont miss me
You can pretend you dont care
All you wanna do is kiss me
Oh, what a shame, Im not there
Somebody new is gonna comfort you
Like you want me to
Somebody new is gonna comfort me
Like you never do
Every now and then, it hits me
That Im the one that got away
But I guess being lonely fits me
And you were made for begging, stay |
{Background Vocals/Sample= Billie Eilish}
I’m sorry, I couldn’t give you what you wanted, I couldn’t tell you what you needed, but I need you, I Promise that
I know, I’ve learned from mistakes, I hope that you know, you didn’t make the list of regrets, that I keep on my mind
I’m sorry, if I don’t meet expectations
I know you’re not into relations, I Promise, you’ve made that clear
I hope that, you can forgive me, when the sun goes down, there isn’t anybody else around, that makes me feel like you, dear
I Promise, that I won’t hurt you anymore, babe, I know it’s bad for me but I still stay with you, I can’t forget
About you, I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do, please baby tell me what I can do, just to be there with you
Because I’m sorry, I don’t care what I have to do, I just wanna tell you that I need you
I need you, I need you, please..
I’m sorry, I couldn’t give you what you wanted, I couldn’t tell you what you needed, but I need you, I Promise that
I know, I’ve learned from mistakes, I hope that you know, you didn’t make the list of regrets, that I keep on my mind |
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to you!
Ok blow out your candles!
Laughing
Shh, blow out your candles
Go head Shawn and blow out on the cake
Everybody’s Watching, it’d be rude to make them wait
Make a wish but tell no one so it’d become true
Now everybody asking like I’m supposed to tell you
I wish that I was happy again
I wish that the smile on my face wasn’t pretend
I wish that I could go blow my own candles out
I wish I could live a day without getting the noose out
But happy birthday to me
Hold up black balloons for all to see
Told me read the cake text in a grown-up voice
Said our favorite second choice
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Shh, blow out your candles
I wish my mother really gave a shit
Wasn’t so damn occupied with getting money and dick
Said she put this party together just for me
But ended up charging an entrance fee
I wish I didn’t find happiness in liquor
I wish but I don’t wish these pills would kill me quicker
I wish I was first choice to my only lover
I’m the only kid at dis party without a father
But happy birthday to me
Hold up black balloons for all to see
Told me read the cake text in a grown-up voice
Said our favorite second choice
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Yeah
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Shh, blow out your candles
People can try to help me and you know talk to me and whatever
But its like, it doesnt, thats, it doesnt change anything.
The only person that can change the way that I feel is me |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead? |
Ive been watchin you for some time
Cant stop staring at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
Ive been walking through a world gone blind
Cant stop thinkin of your diamond mind
Careful creature made friends with time
You left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes |
Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait til the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Count my cards, watch them fall
Blood on a marble wall
I like the way they all scream
Tell me which one is worse
Living or dying first
Sleeping inside a hearse
You say, Come over, baby
I think youre pretty
Im okay, Im not your baby
If you think Im pretty
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy, duh
Im the bad guy
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she reads all the lyrics
Shell pity the men I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy, duh
Im the bad guy, duh
Im only good at being bad, bad
I like when you get mad
I guess Im pretty glad that youre alone
You said shes scared of me?
I mean, I dont see what she sees
But maybe its cause Im wearing your cologne
Im a bad guy
Im, Im a bad guy
Bad guy, bad guy
Im a bad |
Billie
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Come here
Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly
Youre payin? Is the amount cleanin you out? Am I satisfactory?
Today, Im thinkin about the things that are deadly
The way Im drinkin you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killing the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Listen
Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art and make you a star
And get you connected?
Ill meet you in the park, Ill be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start that youd fall apart
Cause Im too expensive
Its probably somethin that shouldnt be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now
Calling security, keepin my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury a friend right now
The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
Cause I cant say no, no, I cant say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes wont close
And I cant say no, I cant say no
Careful
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killing the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go? |
Dont be cautious, dont be kind
You committed, Im your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger fingers mine
Silver dollar, golden flame
Dirty water, poison rain
Perfect murder, take your aim
I dont belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name
But I know the people around you say
Just do what it takes to make it all the way
Are all the same things I did
Youre a copycat
Trying to cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat trying to cop my glamour
Why so sad, bunny, you cant have mine?
Obsessed with power
Call mе calloused, call me cold
Youre italic , Im in bold
Call mе cocky, watch your tone
You better love me, cause youre just a clone
But I know the people around you say
Just do what it takes to make it all the way
Youre a copy cat
You take it then you leave it, honey
Just like that, just like that
Youre falling flat
You find someone like me to bring you up right back
Up right back
Copycat trying to cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat trying to cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny, you cant have mine?
Find someone else to leech on, lady
My bloods for me, not for you, baby
College, estate and all your savings
My bloods for me, so no more taking
Anything you can do, I can do better
In prison for stealing, gon write you a letter
Courageous and clever
Creative director
I raised the bar higher, Sir I broke the record
Im hot as peppers, spent more time in leather
Scuffed up my boots, boy Ill stomp you in Sketchers
They wanna build like their first name is Hector
Back against wall, bitch I am a projector
Im so sorry, now you know
Sorry Im the one that told you so
Sorry, sorry, Im sorry, sorry
Sike
Youre a copy cat
You take it then you leave it, honey
Just like that, just like that
Youre falling flat
You find someone like me to bring you up right back
Up right back
Copycat trying to cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat trying to cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny, you cant have mine? |
My Lucifer is lonely
Standing there, killing time
Cant commit to anything but a crime
Peters on vacation, an open invitation
Animals, evidence
Pearly Gates look more like a picket fence
Once you get inside em
Got friends but cant invite them
Hills burn in California
My turn to ignore ya
Dont say I didnt warn ya
All the good girls go to Hell
Cause even God herself has enemies
And once the water starts to rise
And Heavеns out of sight
Shell want the Devil on hеr team
My Lucifer is lonely, mmm
Look at you needing me
You know Im not your friend without some greenery
Walk in wearin fetters
Peter should know better
Your cover up is caving in
Man is such a fool, why are we saving him?
Poisoning themselves now
Begging for our help, wow
Hills burn in California
My turn to ignore ya
Dont say I didnt warn ya
All the good girls go to Hell
Cause even God herself has enemies
And once the water starts to rise
And Heavens out of sight
Shell want the Devil on her team
My Lucifer is lonely
Theres nothing left to save now
My god is gonna owe me
And theres nothing left to save now
All the good girls go to Hell
Cause even God herself has enemies
And once the water starts to rise
And Heavens out of sight
Shell want the Devil on her team |
No matter how many times I tell people
Its nothing
Hey
Im not okay
Only you know the way
That I break
Hey
Im not okay
Only you know the way
That I break
Its nothing
Its nothing
Its nothing
Hey
Im not okay
Im not o-
Im not o-
Im not o-
Im not okay
Only you know the way
That I break
Hey
Im not okay
Im not okay
Im not okay |
Verse:
Baby, I dont feel so good
Six words you never understood
Ill never let you go
Five words you never say
I laugh alone like nothings wrong
Four days have never felt so long
If threes a crowd and two was us
One slipped away
Chorus:
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Bridge:
{Instrumental}
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Chorus:
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, mm
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Outro:
I just kinda wish you were gay |
Act One
Intro: Eilish is hanging up from the bed lifted before as she later falls from it. Every line from the chorus of bury a friend is played individually next, as the penultimate line gets more distorted before the Where do we go? phrase is played as the last one.
First song: bury a friendSecond song: you should see me in a crown + extended outro Third song: my strange addiction Fourth song: ocean eyes
Fifth song: COPYCAT + extended outro performed by FINNEAS Sixth song: WHEN I WAS OLDER Seventh song: 8 Eighth song: wish you were gay Ninth song: xanny
Act Two |
Ive been watchin you for some time
Cant stop staring at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
Those ocean eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
Ive been walking through a world gone blind
Cant stop thinkin of your diamond mind
Careful creature made friends with time
You left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes
No fair
Those ocean eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those eyes
When you give me those, give me those, give me those eyes |
I shouldve known
Id leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe
We were a pair
But I saw you there
No time to die
Too much to bear
You were my life but life is far away from fair
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
I let it burn
Youre no longer my concern
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die
No time to die
No time to die, ooh-ooh
Theres just no time to die
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy
Duh |
Okay, one, two
If teardrops could be bottled
Thered be swimming pools filled by models
Told, A tight dress is what makes you a whore
If I love you was a promise
Would you break it, if youre honest?
Tell the mirror what you know shes heard before
I dont wanna be you
Anymore
Hands, hands getting cold
Losing feeling is getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I cant shake
Weve made every mistake
Only you know the way that I break
If teardrops could be bottled
Thered be swimming pools filled by models
Told, A tight dress is what makes you a whore
If I love you was a promise
Would you break it, if youre honest?
Tell the mirror what you know shes heard before
I dont wanna be you
I dont wanna be you
I dont wanna be you
Anymore |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead? |
Not available now |
I wanna be alone
Alone with you - does that make sense?
I wanna steal your soul
And hide you in my treasure chest
I dont know what to do
To do with your kiss on my neck
I dont know what feels true
But this feels right so stay a sec
Yeah, you feel right so stay a sec
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall, give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
Just let me hold you
Like a hostage
Gold on your fingertips
Fingertips against my cheek
Gold leaf across your lips
Kiss me until I cant speak
Gold chain beneath your shirt
The shirt that you let me wear home
Golds fake and real love hurts
And nothing hurts when Im alone
When youre with me and were alone
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall, give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
Just let me hold you
Hold you
Like a hostage |
Dont be cautious, dont be kind
You committed, Im your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger fingers mine
Silver dollar, golden flame
Dirty water, poison rain
Perfect murder, take your aim
I dont belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Call me calloused, call me cold
Youre italic, Im in bold
Call me cocky, watch your tone
You better love me, cause youre just a clone
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Mine
I would hate to see you go
Hate to be the one that told you so
You just crossed the line
Youve run out of time
Im so sorry, now you know
Sorry Im the one that told you so
Sorry, sorry, Im sorry, sorry
Psych
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine |
Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait til the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Count my cards, watch them fall
Blood on a marble wall
I like the way they all scream
Tell me which one is worse
Living or dying first
Sleeping inside a hearse
You say, Come over, baby
I think youre pretty
Im okay, Im not your baby
If you think Im pretty
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one |
Thank ya. Alright, um, the next one were gonna play is-is very long and very sad. So, I dont know if you wanna, like, sit down on the floor, or some shit? I dont know if thats even possible, dont worry about it. Anyway, just relax, think about whatever you wanna think about. Um, just-just let this one be like one you dont worry about anything, yes? Okay.
Its not true
Tell me Ive been lied to
Crying isnt like you, ooh
What the hell did I do? Mm
Never been the type to
Let someone see right through, ooh
Mmm-mm-mm-mm
Maybe wont you take it back?
Say you were tryna make mе laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didnt mean to say I love you
I lovе you and I dont want to, ooh
Up all night on another red-eye
I wish we never learned to fly
Maybe we should just try
To tell ourselves a good lie
Didnt mean to make you cry
Mmm-mm-mm-mm
Maybe wont you take it back?
Say you were tryna make me laugh
And nothing has to change today
You didnt mean to say I love you
I love you and I dont want to, ooh
The smile that you gave me
Even when you felt like dying
Do-do-do
We fall apart as it gets dark
Im in your arms in Central Park
Theres nothing you could do or say
I cant escape the way I love you
I dont want to, but I love you, ooh
Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh |
Woo, I love the energy in here
Mmm, mm-mm, da-da-da
Ive been watchin you for some time
Cant stop starin at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyеs
Those ocean eyеs
Ive been walkin through a world gone blind
I cant stop thinkin of your diamond mind
Careful creature made friends with time
He left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes
No fair, no fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes, those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never, never, never, ooh
Mmm
Those ocean eyes
Ba-da-da-da-da, da-da-da-ba-ba-da-da-da
Ba-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da
Ba-da-da-da-da
Ba-da-da-da-da
Ba-da-da-da-da
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes |
Thank you, tee-hee-hee
Ah, this is a—an oldie, mm
Ba-da-da-da-da, ba-da-da-da-da-da
Dont be that way
Fall apart twice a day
I just wish you could feel what you say
Show, never tell
But I know you too well
Got a mood that you wish you could sell
If teardrops could be bottled
Thered be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore
If I love you was a promise
Would you break it, if youre honest?
Tell the mirror what you know shes heard before
I dont wanna be you
Anymore
Da-na-na-na-na
Hands getting cold
Losing feeling is getting old
Was I made from a broken mold?
Hurt, I cant shake
Weve made every mistakе
Only you know the way that I break, uh
If teardrops could bе bottled
Thered be swimming pools filled by models
Told a tight dress is what makes you a whore
If I love you was a promise
Would you break it, if youre honest?
Tell the mirror what you know shes heard before
I dont wanna be you
I dont wanna be you
I dont wanna be you
Anymore |
I wanna be alone
Alone with you
Does that make sense?
I wanna steal your soul
And hide you in my treasure chest
I dont know what to do
To do with your kiss on my neck
I dont know what feels true
But this feels right, so stay a sec
Yeah, this feels right so stay a sec
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall
Give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
So let me hold you
Like a hostage
Gold on your fingertips
Fingertips against my cheek
Gold leaf across your lips
Kiss me until I cant speak
Gold chain beneath your shirt
The shirt that you let me wear home
Golds fake and real love hurts
But nothing hurts when Im alone
When youre with me and were alone
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall
Give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
So let me hold you
Hold you
Like a hostage
Like a hostage
Oh |
Dont be cautious, dont be kind
You committed, Im your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger fingers mine
Silver dollar, golden flame
Dirty water, poison rain
Perfect murder, take your aim
I dont belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Call me calloused, call me cold
Youre italic, Im in bold
Call me cocky, watch your tone
You better love me, cause youre just a clone
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Mine
I would hate to see you go
Hate to be the one that told you so
You just crossed the line
Youve run out of time
Im so sorry, now you know
Sorry Im the one that told you so
Sorry, sorry, Im sorry, sorry
Psych
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine |
Hey, leave a message
Hey - call me back when ya get this
Or when youve got a minute
We really need to talk
Wait - you know what?
Maybe just forget it
Cause by the time you get this
Your number might be blocked
Stay and blah blah blah
You just want what you cant have
No way
Ill call the cops
If you dont stop, Ill call your dad
And I hate to do this to you on your birthday
Happy birthday by the way...
Its not you its me and all that other bullshit
You know thats bullshit
Dontcha, babe
Im not your party favor
Look - now I know we coulda done it better
But we cant change the weather
When the weathers come and gone
Books dont make sense if ya read em backwards
Youll single out the wrong words
Like you mishear all my songs
You hear stay and blah blah blah
You just want what you cant have
No way
Ill call the cops
If you dont stop, Ill call your dad
And I hate to do this to you on your birthday
Happy birthday by the way
Its not you its me and all that other bullshit
You know thats bullshit
Dontcha, babe
Im not your party favor |
Thats right, alright. Oh, we back. Okay, you ready for this next one? Im ready. Yall it is fall, it is November, it is going to be December soon and its time for this one to come back
Mm-mmm
Wake up and smell the coffee
Is your cup half full or empty?
When we talk, you say it softly
But I love it when youre awfully quiet
Quiet, mm
You see the piece of paper
It could be a little greater
Show me what you could make her
Youll never know until you try it
Hmm-mm
And you dont have to keep it quiet
Hmm-mm
And I know it makes you nervous
But I promisе you, its worth it
To show em everything you kеpt inside
Dont hide, dont hide
Too shy to say, but I hope you stay
Dont hide away
Come out and play
Look up, out of your window
See snow, wont let it in though
Leave home and feel the wind blow
Cause its colder here inside in silence, mm-mm
And you dont have to keep it quiet
Yeah, I know it makes you nervous
But I promise you, its worth it
To show em everything you kept inside
Dont hide, dont hide
Too shy to say but I hope you stay
Dont hide away
Come out and play |
Da-da-da-da-da, you must know this song
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that sad—what? Hahahaha
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Uh, duh
Da-da, da-da-da-da-da
Im the sad type, what?
Uh, mm
Da-da-da, da-da-da-da-da-da
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she reads all the lyrics
Shell pity the mеn I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant gеt enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Ba-da, da-da-da-da-da
Da-da, da-da-da-da-da, uh
Im the bad guy, duh
Im only good at bein bad, bad
Da-da, da-da-da-da-da-da |
INTRO!
Vogue, work, love hurts, work that ×2
Down on your beat and I’m moving to the beat, mmm I don’t know what to do now
Say you want some more well I’m ready play for keeps, ooh I’m stepping out here with you now
You spin me, around here we go ×2
You spin me on your nine inch vinyl
Like an animal…..ooohhhhh im out of control
You spin me right round, baby baby baby
Like a record record record
Right round round
Neck, thighs, lips, eyes…. Want to taste? Gotta work that! ×2
Grab my hand and waste, pulled me closer to his face
Only one thing left to do now, we can go back to my place
Tag baby, its a race, its just too much saucе and too much juice now
Won’t you stay oh baby won’t you stay here and sеt me free
By the way oh baby by the way that love of yours of yours just wont let me be, ooooh
You spin me, around here we go ×2
You spin me on your nine inch vinyl
Like an animal…..ooohhhhh im out of control
You spin me right round, baby - work
Like a record - work
Right round - work that
Stay, baby wont you lay, rest me down to pray
Stay, baby wont you lay, trapped you in my dirty ways
Right round ×8
You spin me, around here we go ×2
You spin me on your nine inch vinyl
Like an animal…..ooohhhhh im out of control
You spin me right round, baby baby baby
Like a record record record
Right round round |
I cant seem to focus
And you dont seem to notice Im not here
Im just a mirror
You check your complexion
To find your reflections all alone
I had to go
Cant you hear me?
Im not comin home
Do you understand?
Ive changed my plans
Cause I, Im in love
With my future
Cant wait to meet her
And I, Im in love
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself
I know supposedly Im lonely now
Know Im supposed to be unhappy
Without someone
But arent I someone?
Id like to be your answer
Cause youre so handsome
But I know better
Than to drive you home
Causе youd invite me in
And Id be yours again
But I, Im in lovе
With my future
And you dont know her
And I, Im in love
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself |
Baby, I dont feel so good
Six words you never understood
Ill never let you go away
Five words you never wanna say
I laugh alone like nothings wrong
Four days has never felt so long
If threes a crowd and two was us
One slipped away
Mmm, yeah
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
You know very well
That I am not your type
Then why’d you lead me on
To make me feel otherwise?
If I was dreaming
Then don’t wake up
Cause I just wanna be in this for the long run
And oh look, you said that you love me
Or did I hear something else?
Sirens all around me sound like wedding bells
And I didn’t think it over
You were speaking a lot
Thought u were talking to me, but guess you’re talking to your dog
How I’m supposed to make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way?
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im being honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up I see
You with me
And you say
As long as Im here
No one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not
Just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like
They were right there
And it feels like yesterday
Was a year ago
But I dont wanna let
Anybody know
Cause everybody wants
Something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
As long as Im here
No one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
If I knew it all then
Would I do it again
Would I do it again
If they knew what they said
Would go straight to my head
What would they say instead
If I knew it all then
Would I do it again
Would I do it again
If they knew what they said
Would go straight to my head
What would they say instead |
I shouldve known
Id leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed
Is just the blood you owe
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
There is just no time to die
I let it burn
Youre no longer my concern
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die
No time to die, ooh
No time to die, ooh
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die |
In the last year, Billie Eilish scored five Grammys, went multiplatinum eight times, released the new Bond theme, and had to cancel a world tour. Then, she turned 19.Before I ever meet Billie Eilish, I feel like I know her. I have already watched her ride a pinto across a New Zealand beach, get her sprained ankle wrapped, grind on a bag of bagels, blow a slobbery raspberry into hеr brother Finneas’s face, mimic hеr mother, expound on the seriousness of the coronavirus, shoot water out one nostril while using a neti pot, and fit much of an Oscar Schmidt Aloha ukulele headstock into her mouth. I know what a Billie Eilish burp sounds like, and also a sneeze. Here, in the trailer for a forthcoming documentary about her life, is blond-haired toddler Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O’Connell perched on a piano bench. Here she is a few years later, singing at a talent show. I have listened to her perform at the Democratic National Convention, the Academy Awards, the Grammys , Coachella, SNL, Howard Stern, NPR’s Tiny Desk, Ellen, The Tonight Show, and in a car with James Corden.
The muchness of Eilish’s online presence is overwhelming and kaleidoscopic, her own posts and performances spawning fan accounts and compilation videos and ecstatic reaction videos and memes, so many memes, refractions of Billie Eilish ad infinitum. There is the Baader-Meinhof effect too; once you are aware of Eilish, she really is everywhere. She’s trending on Twitter, her emotive face shows up in a group text, her beautiful voice Dopplers out of a passing car. In the four short years since she signed with Darkroom/Interscope Records, she has risen to mind-boggling stardom: Her 49-show Where Do We Go? arena tour, which had just kicked off in March and would have run through September had it not been for the pandemic, sold out days after tickets went on sale. In October, when we first speak, her music video for the deliciously delinquent pop-trap tune “Bad Guy” hits a billion views; a couple weeks later, she drops “Therefore I Am,” a single from her forthcoming album, and it’s watched 12 million times in the first 24 hours. And she isn’t yet 19.
Because of all this preconditioning—to profile a celebrity is to dip a toe into the waters of extreme fandom—it is both thrilling and banal to see Eilish pop up on Zoom. She’s wending her way through her family’s home in Highland Park, Los Angeles, where she’s filmed so many clips for Instagram and conducted almost all of her interviews over the last four years.
“I just made a magnificent breakfast,” Eilish tells me as she props her phone against a mirror in the little blue bathroom. This, too, seems normal. Eilish has few if any pretenses. Her hands smell like garlic and onions, she says. “I have to wash them now.” She makes a show of it, finishing with a little ta-da! move, as though she should be wearing a top hat. I half expect her to start singing. Alas, she does not.
She’s in an oversize black T-shirt emblazoned with the rapper Duckwrth’s face. She’s embraced the body-obscuring street style pioneered by female artists like Missy Elliott and TLC. “Earlier this year my album Igor was the number one album in the country,” Tyler, the Creator growled at the 2019 American Music Awards, “and then this 17-year-old girl who dresses like a quarterback decided to change that.” At five feet three, she’s almost always dwarfed by whoever she’s with, be it one of her burly bodyguards or her lanky six-foot-tall brother, Finneas, who is also her producer and collaborator—but she could be any height onscreen, and throughout our conversations she’s either got the phone placed somewhere around her knees so she’s looming above me, backgrounded by the black and red motif of her childhood bedroom, or I’m looking down at her as she lolls on her bed amid Blohsh pillows. With her enviable eyebrows, button nose, and heavy-lidded eyes, she looks not unlike a fresh-faced Marilyn Monroe—albeit with a two-tone dye job, the raven black pushed out by neon-green roots.
In photos she smolders or glowers or sulks. Her music videos are awash in black liquids streaming from her eyes, oil spills, burn marks, tarantulas, disembodied hands clawing at her face. Finneas has worked the sickening whiz of a dentist’s drill and the wet suck of Eilish removing her Invisalign into her songs. There is an extreme teen-ness to her, which elicits the same sort of rebukes bestowed upon other young stars who haven’t taken fondly to instant fame. A screenshot of Eilish, her lip curled in what appears to be confused derision, went viral seemingly nanoseconds after she made the expression during Kristen Wiig and Maya Rudolph’s performance at the 2020 Academy Awards, drawing instant ire for her apparent dis of our comedic lords and saviors. But the Twitter takedowns left out context: Eilish had been smiling up at the performance until she caught sight of herself on a giant screen. At the Grammys, following her sweep of every other major category, the camera caught her mouthing “Please don’t let it be me,” like a shy overachiever on school awards day, before they called album of the year.
Billie is a member of the unique moment in history,” says R.J. Cutler, who directs the forthcoming Apple TV+ documentary Billie Eilish: The World’s a Little Blurry, which filmed from 2018 into early 2020, “where perhaps every second of her life has been recorded in some form or another.” Cutler, director of The War Room and executive producer of ABC’s Nashville, had been immediately drawn to the project. “Those stories of teenage life are so interesting to me. It’s such a fascinating time of life, where you were both child and adult; one foot in childhood, one foot in adulthood. And especially for somebody who’s going through what Billie was going through and who was such a remarkable talent.”
Eilish was excited about the prospect of the documentary from the beginning. “I just have always loved cameras,” she says, that moment at the Oscars aside, “and I loved being on camera, and I’ve always loved watching videos of myself, since I was a little kid. I remember being 10 and being like, ‘Mom, can I watch home movies?’ ” Eilish is sentimental about memory, and she fills boxes under her bed with mementos: receipts from a trip to Japan, keys to old diaries, a beanie that belonged to the first person she fell in love with. “I have perfumes in that box. Small little vials of perfumes that smell exactly the way I smelled in that relationship,” she says, and another one “that smells like somebody that was abusive to me, mentally.”
For all her professional Sturm und Drang, in conversation she’s animated and smiley, her big blue eyes often crinkling at the corners. “In our creative life and minds,” she says of herself and Finneas, “we’re just at an all-time good.” She was 16 when she recorded When We All Fall Asleep, and “parts of it were great and I love that album, but I was,” she says, “not in a great mental place.” Since then, she’s started seeing a therapist. She’s more settled. She laughs a lot—a midsentence hiccup when she’s making fun of her own earnestness; a throaty chuckle when she’s proud of and/or flabbergasted by her trajectory, like when I ask where she keeps her Grammys and she says, “Right on the shelf, right on the shelf, heh-heh.” But the ultimate Eilish laugh is an open-mouth-grinning, eyebrows-raised ha-haaa! that falls somewhere between a chortle and a squawk—it is a laugh that might belong to a very charming cartoon chicken.
The music she’s working on now, she says, “feels exactly how I want it to. There isn’t one song, or one part of one song, that I wish was this or that I wish it was that.” An early single, “Therefore I Am,” thrilled fans and critics with its can’t-touch-this vibe coupled with Descartes’s “cogito, ergo sum” reflections on being, the lyrics a decoder ring of references. Eilish describes it as “a pretty solid fuck-it type song.” In the music video, filmed at the Glendale Galleria on an iPhone at 4 a.m., she acts out a universal fantasy of any budding American consumer, running through the mall’s empty fluorescence, collecting junk food from various stalls.
Even without the documentary, aspects of the Eilish origin story have been so well-chronicled as to achieve a kind of mythic status: that her parents homeschooled both her and Finneas, in part because their father was inspired when he learned that the Hanson brothers had been taught at home and allowed to pursue whatever creative endeavors most struck their fancy, paving the way for “MMMBop.” That Finneas and Eilish recorded the mesmeric, ethereal “Ocean Eyes” for her dance class, and when they uploaded it to SoundCloud in November 2015, it went viral overnight. That a growth-plate injury soon after would end her dance aspirations, and around the same time she wouldn’t make it into the exclusive chamber choir in the Los Angeles Children’s Chorus, which she’d been singing with since age eight. That in summer 2016, then 25-year-old Justin Lubliner signed her to his label Darkroom in partnership with Interscope Records.
Her appeal transcends generations—she’s found admirers in Alicia Keys, who recorded a cover of “Ocean Eyes”; Julia Roberts, who has said she “is everything”; and Dave Grohl, who called her “unbelievable.” Woody Harrelson, who hosted the 2019 season premiere of SNL for which she was the musical guest, calls her “a little bit otherworldly.” But, unsurprisingly, it’s teen girls who make up the most vocal contingent of her fan base. Harrelson had to keep the fact that Eilish was performing at the show from his teen daughter, because he knew she’d insist on coming to the show . “A great deal of it has to do with how much loves the music. Also, there’s something about Billie that just feels genuine,” he says. “She’s just herself, which is very hard to be.”
“She’s direct and unaffected,” her father, Patrick O’Connell, says. “It’s disarming and visible to anyone who sees it, but I think it’s so appealing and magnetic to her fans.” There is a typical Billie Eilish fan experience, he says, channeling it: “ ‘Oh my gosh, she’s just like me. Oh my God, we could be friends if we only knew each other. Oh my God, she’s saying exactly what I would say.’ ”
The teenage years are often fueled by big emotions, an enormous and self-critical solipsism, and the feeling that nobody understands, nobody sees, that every terrible, confusing, embarrassing aspect of life is happening to you and you alone. Art is the thing that saves us, that teaches us early lessons in empathy: Others can and do experience the same feelings of lust, of sadness, of shame. It’s a sense of being seen, a first taste of deep love. The looks on the faces of Eilish’s fans—so many of them young, so many of them girls—as they stare up at her onstage and weep is so universal, so visceral. It’s earthshaking.
That kind of devotion, Eilish says, “makes you kind of crazy. We all know the feeling of seeing yourself and being like, What is going on with me, I’m acting insane. When you’re excited about something, you forget boundaries and you forget what’s polite and what’s kind of not polite. I’ve had a lot of weird situations—people will kiss me and pick me up, spin me around.”
For meet-and-greets, back when those were still happening, members of her team started briefing the kids in line about how to behave. “It is definitely important to have the boundaries and also have people around you that can help in a situation like that,” Eilish says. “I never want to push away somebody that’s showing me only love. And even if it’s coming from a place of crazy love, I don’t ever want to push that too far away.”
“I think Patrick and I, in a way, get to benefit from it a little bit more than Billie does, because we can see the beautiful effect she’s having on people’s lives,” says Baird. “It’s hard for her to take that in. You can easily feel like you’re letting people down.”
Part of her connection with her fans, Eilish says, is because she understands them so well, and describes herself as “a fan type person.” Her own musical obsessions are well-cataloged, in particular her early infatuation with Justin Bieber, for which her mother once considered putting her into therapy. In April 2019, they met for the first time, at Coachella. Eilish stood speechless in front of him for a full 30 seconds before falling into his arms for an airport-terminal-grade hug. They danced to a surprise NSYNC performance of “Tearin’ Up My Heart,” a song recorded more than four years before Eilish was born. Three months later, Bieber recorded a verse for a “Bad Guy” remix; the accompanying art is a photo of Eilish at age 12 surrounded by the Bieber posters taped to her bedroom walls.
While a generation of teenage girls may be channeling their angst and vicarious rebellions through Eilish’s moody lyrics, the concerned parent can take comfort in the fact that Eilish is a teetotaler. At 15, one of her friends ended up in rehab following an overdose, others close to her have died. The motif of “burying” friends and lovers “not dying by mistake” appears throughout her music. In a sea of anthems to the glory of getting fucked up, Eilish’s “Xanny,” sung with a jazzy, benzo-laced ennui, is actually about the sadness of being among people who can’t stay sober. “When I was growing up and I was around my group of friends back then,” says Eilish of her own sobriety, “and they would all be drinking and smoking and doing drugs and whatever, I think because of the way that my personality is—I’m a very strong-willed person, and I think at the time I was very alpha—I’m coming to realize that I may have felt a feeling of superiority.”
These days, she says, as long as her friends are steering clear of hard drugs and being safe with everything else, she’s not worried—besides which, the issue comes up less. “I’m not out here going to parties and also,” she slows down, “I’m me, so I can’t really go…anywhere.” I must have made an expression of sympathy, because she follows with “But it’s okay!” as though trying to reassure me.
The world has no shortage of child stars hewn by parent managers—Britney, Beyoncé, Lindsay—whose relationships, as the children inevitably turn into adults, follow varying rocky trajectories. From a distance, Baird and O’Connell bear the hallmarks of stage parents: They’re both actors who had fine but less than dazzling careers; the Hanson inspo could’ve been a red flag. But the ingredients haven’t concocted trouble. While Baird, who taught the kids, does serve as a sometime manager for her daughter, she’s more of a tour mom, and O’Connell, who worked construction for Mattel, started out as a handyman at his children’s shows; now he does the lights. “ seems to have such an even keel, and I credit it to her extraordinary, very tight family,” says Harrelson, who went to lunch with them the day after the SNL broadcast. “They’re looking after each other, they love each other immensely. And so there’s not the same kind of head games.”
And a sibling rivalry is meanwhile hard to imagine. Finneas has a full-blown musical career in his own right, putting out a solo EP in 2019 and producing songs for Selena Gomez and Camila Cabello. “He has this special and unique ability to work with Billie that nobody else has,” says O’Connell. “He’s her older brother. He’s seen it all from the start. She’s seen it all. So they have this honesty with each other and they can be very frank. They can tell each other that they suck. They also have great respect for each other’s individual talents.” Her pretty, mournful song, “Everything I Wanted” is about the comfort and stability of their relationship.
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, “As long as I’m here
No one can hurt you…”
As the Eilish operation scales exponentially up, moving from the single bus and motel rooms of its early tours to the arenas, first-class flights, and full security detail that it is today, on a basic musical level it has retained its DIY roots: Eilish and Finneas still record all of their songs themselves, most often in Finneas’s childhood bedroom, his multiple keyboards jammed between Murakami flower pillows.
The homespun production has lent them a nimbleness that proved useful pre-pandemic, when they spent so much time on tour. In 2019, when longtime James Bond producer Barbara Broccoli invited Eilish and Finneas to work on a No Time to Die theme, they wrote it on the road and recorded it in the quietest place they could find: their tour bus. “The bus was off, so it was completely pitch-black,” Eilish says, “and I was sitting hunched over in my bunk and Finneas was sitting in his bunk across the aisle.” Hans Zimmer himself plucked the song from the list of options—going against the sensibilities, he’s said, of other decision makers—calling it “hugely personal,” “really well crafted,” and “lean.” The morning after Eilish’s 18th birthday they traveled to London, and following a jet-lagged viewing, they recorded “No Time to Die” with Zimmer’s orchestra at Sir George Martin’s AIR Studios. It, too, garnered a nomination at this year’s Grammys.
If a Google search turns up scant paparazzi shots of one of the world’s most popular musicians, it’s because she makes herself vigorously unavailable. She doesn’t eat out and no longer takes spins around Trader Joe’s, where she once hoped to become a checker. Weeks before I met her, a pap snapped a photo of her in the few seconds it took to get from her car to her brother’s house. She was wearing a tank top, on the way to the beach, and the image spawned a range of opinions, from the celebratory to the vile.
“I think that the people around me were more worried about it than I was, because the reason I used to cut myself was because of my body. To be quite honest with you, I only started wearing baggy clothes because of my body,” says Eilish. “I was really, really glad though, mainly, that I’m in this place in my life, because if that had happened three years ago, when I was in the midst of my horrible body relationship—or dancing a ton, five years ago, I wasn’t really eating. I was, like, starving myself. I remember taking a pill that told me that it would make me lose weight and it only made me pee the bed—when I was 12. It’s just crazy. I can’t even believe, like I—wow. Yeah. I thought that I would be the only one dealing with my hatred for my body, but I guess the internet also hates my body. So that’s great.”
I posit that the internet might hate all women’s bodies.
“The internet hates women,” Eilish says. Last year, she made a short film in which she very slowly disrobes from a black hoodie to a bra and sinks into thick black liquid. “Do you know me?” her voiceover asks. “Really know me? You have opinions about my opinions, about my music, about my clothes, about my body.”
The pandemic has tightened her already tight-knit circle; she spends most of her time with her family and a few close friends, many of whom work for her. On our first call, two publicists and one of her managers, Laura, whom she calls her “best friend,” unexpectedly joined us—a publicist has been present for every cover interview, they say, “since day one”—but a week later, it’s just us, as requested.
“I am sitting here and napping with the ugly little dog,” she says at the start of our second Zoom: “He is snoring and smells terrible.” She moves the phone so I can take in Shark, her jowly 10-month-old blue nose pit bull rescue, adopted toward the beginning of the pandemic, who is going through a rebellious phase. At the moment he is luxuriating on his back, his face tucked into her armpit, making a noise that could be warped into a background track on one of her songs.
During the pandemic, she has discovered the joys of ordering online. “I don’t know what things cost because I’ve never been an adult before,” she says. “And, you know, I grew up with no money.” Then she crash-landed into the adult world as a multiplatinum artist selling out arena tours. When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? sold 3.9 million units. “It’s a really weird position I’m in. I feel kind of stupid because I’m like, I don’t know how much Froot Loops are. I tried to order one box of Froot Loops and I was like, Oh yeah, sure. It’s $35. I didn’t know that that’s expensive.” She raises her eyebrows. “I ordered 70 boxes.”
She also finished watching The Office—for the 15th time. When I ask about her devotion to the show, which she sampled on “My Strange Addiction,” she says, “I’ve got a lot going on in my head and my brain really can’t shut the fuck up unless there’s something else going on. It takes me out of my thoughts. And I like that it’s just, like, realistic shit. It’s the most average people’s lives, and I love that.”
Eight months into the pandemic, Finneas and Eilish managed a feat few have attempted: They gave a live concert to thousands of fans. At 3 p.m. PT, as the lights came up on Eilish’s Los Angeles stage, the words “the show is best on a bigger screen” appeared at the corner of my laptop, a reminder for a generation of teenagers raised on smartphones. The show setup looked simple enough: Finneas at his keyboard, Eilish with a mic, and Andrew Marshall on drums, each occupying their own third of the stage. But then the VR kicked in. During the set’s opener, “Bury a Friend,” a song from the perspective of the monster under your bed, Eilish’s shadow stretched nightmarishly up the backboard into a looming Tim Burton-esque bogeyman. A three-dimensional wall-spanning spider, the platonic ideal of every arachnophobe’s worst anxieties, skittered and stomped around Eilish as she sang “You Should See Me in a Crown.” A cute forest bloomed; a shark devoured her; she and her brother soared skyward on a pillar, surrounded by stars and backed by the moon. It was magical in a very 21st century kind of way. And mega-graphics aside, the clapping from the crew between songs lent a sense of intimacy to the proceedings. It was “to give me a little something,” Eilish says, “because it’s weird to not have the crowd. All of my performance energy comes from the crowd.”
Still, the energy was there. Growing up, Eilish watched concert videos of her favorite rappers. “I envied them because they get to just take their shirts off, because they’re men, and jump around the stage, and the whole crowd is jumping around and spraying water, and moshing and they’re dirty and they don’t care!” she says. “I have pretty much been channeling that energy for years.” During rehearsals and performances, Eilish’s bombast has racked up a torn hip flexor, shin splints, and sprained ankles. As damaging as her profession has been to her body, it’s been productive exercise for her mind. Eilish, who has an auditory processing disorder, was also diagnosed with Tourette’s syndrome around the time “Ocean Eyes” took off. “I think music is a great therapy for her, but it’s her own music and it’s her performing,” says O’Connell. “She doesn’t suffer from Tourette’s during performance.”
An unexpected pleasure of the livestream is hearing nearly 19-year-old Eilish singing songs recorded at ages 14, 15, 16, and realizing just how much her voice has matured. “It’s been five years since ‘Ocean Eyes’ came out, and I thought she had an incredibly beautiful voice then,” Finneas says. “I would liken it to the way that an Olympic trainer might see a 15-year-old Apolo Ohno and think, This is a really good speed skater for a 15-year-old—imagine how good they’ll be at 20.” He says that the new album, which he calls “a continuation of Billie’s life story,” has grown with her. “Even just little moments of variety, like on ‘No Time to Die,’ she has a big belt moment that a couple of years younger Billie might not have had the training or the stamina to do.” On songs like “Ocean Eyes,” spanning two octaves and arranged for a 13-year-old’s fluty vocal cords, Eilish’s voice now often dissolves into a haunting whisper in that highest register; everywhere else is richer, fuller.
The timing of the livestream, just 10 days before the election, was no accident. “That was a big part of making sure that we were taking advantage of the reach,” Eilish says. In the hour before kickoff, the preshow included messages from Jameela Jamil, Eilish’s “surrogate dad” Steve Carell, and Alicia Keys encouraging fans to exercise their right to vote. During “All the Good Girls Go to Hell,” with its line “hills burn in California,” scenes of climate disaster—Eilish’s soapbox bugbear—spun over the soundstage. “Vooote, for God’s sake,” she said as she left the stage at the end of the show, her head tipped back in the universal expression of adolescent irritation.
“I think it’s human to care, and I just don’t really get why people don’t care,” she says. “I want to have kids and I want those kids to have kids. Like, I don’t—” she stops and gives a sad non-laugh. “We’re going to die.”
Young people become catalysts in times of political and social unrest, when the future, their future, is uncertain. In the ’60s, the Vietnam War and the fight for civil rights saw uprisings on college campuses. In the last four years, a new activist generation has come of age, from Greta Thunberg fighting for climate action; to 13-year-old Flint, Michigan, resident Mari Copeny raising hundreds of thousands of dollars for nationwide water filters; to teenage TikTokers pulling a prank on a Trump rally. At the beginning of the pandemic, Baird launched Support + Feed, which partners with local restaurants to provide plant-based meals to those experiencing food insecurity, a venture that she says Eilish has supported “emotionally, financially, and social media-wise.”
Baird, who grew up “in Colorado with a Democratic family in a very Republican state and area” , says that politics have always been important in the O’Connell-Baird-Finneas-Eilish household. In 2016, “I think Billie and Finneas and every one of their age group, to be honest, had a real blow, because your parents are supposed to make you feel safe, and your parents are supposed to say everything’s going to be okay. And when Trump won, we just kind of fell apart,” she says. “I always think that maybe that had a lot to do with them making the album that they made.” In the lead-up to the election, following her performance at the DNC, Eilish received a callout from President Biden on Twitter: “I’ll just say what @billieeilish said: vote like your life depends on it.” The week before, she’d posted a short video call with Vice President Kamala Harris to talk about climate change. The outgoing Trump administration highlighted her name in a document as an artist who should not be used in a coronavirus ad campaign. “I was very proud of myself,” she says. “Tons of my friends texted me and they were like, I’m so proud of you! Trump is afraid of you! I was like, Damn right.”
A week after the election, I checked in. “I was up with a bunch of horses all day,” she says of Election Day—she’s been riding on and off since her early teens. “I was trying to distract myself, giving my energy to the horses, which was honestly so nice.” When the networks called the election for Biden and Harris, Eilish says she “immediately started howling and cheering at eight in the morning. And so did the rest of the neighborhood.” She grabbed some leftover fireworks from the Fourth of July and “I lit the bitches.” “There’s still a million things we need to do better,” she says, “but just getting that orange piece of shit out of that White House is the best thing that could happen right now.”
It feels like I’m catching her in a relative calm before a storm. As she barrels through her final year of the teen age, the release of The World’s a Little Blurry is about to put on display aspects of her life she’d never planned on sharing, including the intimate details of a romantic relationship that she’d never wanted to talk about publicly. “That was a huge part of my life,” she says. “And nobody knew it. It was this main thing that was taking control of my life.”
When I ask whether she’s in a relationship now, I get a direct, “Girl, no.” I point out that she’s said this before and later took it back. She thinks for a moment. “I am glad every day that I’m single, but I’m also like, not out here pushing people away. I’d be fine to have somebody, but I don’t.”
“The fundamental theme of Billie’s story,” says Cutler, is “empathy, connection.” When Eilish finally watched an early cut of the documentary, she had a hard time getting through it. “It’s really about my life, me, in such a way that I was not expecting, and was pretty brutal to relive.” But that experience has been ultimately rewarding—and it gave her something equally unexpected. “I was going through hell in certain parts of my life, and I had no idea anyone was seeing it,” she says. “The fact that they have footage of it and you can see my emotions…. It’s like, I can’t help but think about the last episode of The Office when Erin was like,” she paraphrases, “How did you do it? How did you really get how we felt and what we were doing? How did you do it? I used to watch that episode and be like, That would be amazing if somebody did that and you could rewatch those parts of your life from a different perspective. And I did it!” |
I shouldve known
Id leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed
Is just the blood you owe
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
There is just no time to die
I let it burn
Youre no longer my concern
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die
No time to die, ooh
No time to die, ooh
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die |
Ooh, mm
Dont be cautious, dont be kind
You committed, Im your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger fingers mine
Silver dollar, golden flame
Dirty water, poison rain
Perfect murder, take your aim
I dont belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Call me calloused, call me cold
Youre italic, Im in bold
Call me cocky, watch your tone
You bеtter love me, causе youre just a clone
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Mine
I would hate to see you go
Hate to be the one that told you so
You just crossed the line
Youve run out of time
Im so sorry, now you know
Sorry Im the one that told you so
Sorry, sorry, Im sorry, sorry
Psych, bitch
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamor
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine |
Uh-uh-uh
Da-da-da-da-da
Sittin all alone
Mouth full of gum
In the driveway
My friends arent far
In the back of my car
Lay their bodies
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Theyll be here pretty soon
Lookin through my room
For the money
Im bitin my nails
Im too young to go to jail
Its kinda funny
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Maybe its in the gutter
Where I left my lover
What an expensive fake
My V is for Vendetta
Thought that Id feel better
But now I got a bеllyache
Everything I do
The way I wеar my noose
Like a necklace
I wanna make em scared
Like I could be anywhere
Like Im reckless, oh
But I lost my mind
I dont mind, sing it
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Maybe its in the gutter
Where I left my lover
What an expensive fake, mm
My V is for Vendetta
I thought that Id feel better
But now I got a bellyache, a bellyache
Maybe its in the gutter
Where I left my lover
What an expensive fake, uh
My V is for Vendetta
I thought that Id feel better
But now I got a bellyache |
Dont be cautious, dont be kind
You committed, Im your crime
Push my button anytime
You got your finger on the trigger, but your trigger fingers mine
Silver dollar, golden flame
Dirty water, poison rain
Perfect murder, take your aim
I dont belong to anyone, but everybody knows my name
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamour
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Call me calloused, call me cold
Youre italic, Im in bold
Call me cocky, watch your tone
You better love me, cause youre just a clone
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamour
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine
Mine
I would hate to see you go
Hate to be the one that told you so
You just crossed the line
Youve run out of time
Im so sorry, now you know
Sorry Im the one that told you so
Sorry, sorry, Im sorry, sorry
Psych
By the way, youve been uninvited
Cause all you say are all the same things I did
Copycat tryna cop my manner
Watch your back when you cant watch mine
Copycat tryna cop my glamour
Why so sad, bunny? Cant have mine |
Thank you. Okay, so Ima do one more song and then Im gonna go. But, um, I wanna thank you guys for coming and listening. Um, and, uh, thank you so much to Jack White for having us and here being a boss, um, and-and inspiring a whole generation of people to do what they want. Um, and this place is so cool, its like such an honor to get to be here and to do this. Its like the coolest thing ever. Do you see that? Theyre like making my voice onto a thing, like, thats crazy. Like, right now, its crazy, heh. Um, so for this last one, um all I say—all I wanna say and all I ask is that just we all to just try to be, um, just try to be, um, just happy that were alive and happy that were breathing and that were here and were safe and, um, thats pretty much it. Just be—just for us to all be grateful that were here right now on this Earth. Um, yeah, so thank you for having me. Lets do it. And thank you so much for giving me the energy youve been giving me
Dont you know Im no good for you?
Ive learned to lose you, cant afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleedin
But nothin ever stops you leavin
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Dont you know too much already?
Ill only hurt you if you let me
Call me friend, but keep me closer, call me back
And Ill call you when the partys over
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
And I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Yeah, I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
But nothin is better sometimes
Once weve both said our goodbyes
Lets just let it go
Let me let you go
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Thank you guys, thank you, I love you. And thank you to my brother, Finneas whos my best friend in the whole world |
I wanna be alone
Alone with you - does that make sense?
I wanna steal your soul
And hide you in my treasure chest
I dont know what to do
To do with your kiss on my neck
I dont know what feels true
But this feels right so stay a sec
Yeah, you feel right so stay a sec
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall, give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
Just let me hold you
Like a hostage
Gold on your fingertips
Fingertips against my cheek
Gold leaf across your lips
Kiss me until I cant speak
Gold chain beneath your shirt
The shirt that you let me wear home
Golds fake and real love hurts
And nothing hurts when Im alone
When youre with me and were alone
And let me crawl inside your veins
Ill build a wall, give you a ball and chain
Its not like me to be so mean
Youre all I wanted
Just let me hold you
Hold you
Like a hostage |
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April 1, 2022: Las Vegas, NV
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April 9, 2022: Los Angeles, CAEUROPEJunе–July |
Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you
Dont come back, it wont end well
But I wish youd tell me to
Our love is six feet under
I cant help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom
Again?
Retrace my lips
Erase your touch
Its all too much for me
Blow away
Like smoke in air
How can you die carelessly?
Our love is six feet under
I cant help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Would roses bloom?
Could roses bloom?
Theyre playing our sound
Laying us down tonight
And all of these clouds
Crying us back to life
But youre cold as a knife
Six feet under
I cant help but wonder
If our grave was watered by the rain
Bloom
Bloom
Again
Help, I lost myself again
But I remember you |
No, Billy, I havent done that dance since my wife died
Theres a whole crowd of people out there who need to learn how to do the Scarn
Dont ask questions you dont wanna know
Learned my lesson way too long ago
To be talkin to you, belladonna
Shoulda taken a break, not an oxford comma
Take what I want when I wanna
And I want ya
Bad, bad news
One of us is gonna lose
Im the powder, youre the fuse
Just add some friction
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors cant explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
Im really, really sorry
I think I was just relieved to see that Michael Scarn got his confidence back
Yeah, Michael, the movies amazing
Its like, one of the best movies Ive ever seen in my life
Deadly fever, please dont ever break
Be my reliever cause I dont self medicate
And it burns like a gin and I like it
Put your lips on my skin and you might ignite it
Hurts, but I know how to hide it, kinda like it
Bad, bad news
One of us is gonna lose
Im the powder, youre the fuse
Just add some friction
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors cant explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
Bite my glass, set myself on fire
Cant you tell Im crass?
Cant you tell Im wired?
Tell me nothin lasts
Like I dont know
You could kiss my askin about my motto
You should enter it in festivals
Or carnivals
Thoughts?
Pretty good reaction
Pretty cool, right?
You are my strange addiction
You are my strange addiction
My doctors cant explain
My symptoms or my pain
But you are my strange addiction
Did you like it? Did you like that?
Um, which part? |
Oh, boy, we bout to bomb the next one. Oh, oh. Alright, hee-hee, you cute, heh-heh, heh-heh
Mm, what do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know? Ba-ba-ba
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly
Youre payin? Is the amount cleanin you out? Am I satisfactory?
Today, Im thinkin about the things that are deadly
The way Im drinkin you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me
Step on the glass, staple your tongue, ahh
Bury a friend, try to wake up, ahh
Cannibal class, killing the son, ahh
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art and make you a star
And get you connected?
Ill meet you in the park, Ill be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start that youd fall apart
Cause Im too expensive
Its probably somethin that shouldnt be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now, wow
Calling security, keepin my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury a friend right now
The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
Cause I cant say no, no, I cant say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes wont close
And I cant say no, I cant say no, mm
Step on the glass, staple your tongue, ahh
Bury a friend, try to wake up, ahh
Cannibal class, killing the son, ahh
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
[Pre-Chorus
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go? Hee-hee |
Oh~
Haa~
In the end, when theyre all gone
When the world is silent and the days are long
Just you and I, well be alive
We made it on our own
Oh~
I dont wanna be scared
Anymore
Help me
Cause everybody makes it till they dont
Ooh~
And everybody wants to think they wont
Cause everybody makes it till they dont
Ooh~
And everybody wants to think they wont
Maybe Im still alive but my heart is beating slow
Baby, tell mе I gotta know
Are you okay? You seem too far gone
Infectеd, standing there all alone
Haa~
Cause everybody makes it till they dont
And everybody thinks they wont, they wont, they wont
Cause everybody makes it till they dont
And everybody thinks they wont, they wont, they wont
Is an emergency
I have my fingers crossed
While they they swing to the melody
Their perfume? Rotten Lacoste
Runnin to the shore
Till I cant no more
Stealing in the stores
Run for evermore
Oh
The best of me, the best of me was you?, or is you?
The best of me, the best of me is you?, Was you
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa...
Ladum, badum, mmmm, mmm... |
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
As long as Im here, no one can hurt you |
Dont you know Im no good for you?
Ive learned to lose you, cant afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleedin
But nothin ever stops you leavin
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Dont you know too much already?
Ill only hurt you if you let me
Call me friend, but keep me closer
And Ill call you when the partys over
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
And I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
Yeah, I could lie, say I likе it like that, like it like that
But nothin is bеtter sometimes
Once weve both said our goodbyes
Lets just let it go
Let me let you go
Quiet when Im coming home and Im on my own
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that
I could lie, say I like it like that, like it like that |
Everybody is looking at me, Its 1AM
No eyes in the room are looking at anything else
I cant seem to be able to move
Not even a single finger
Hands coming down from the ceiling
And the fan has stopped spinning
Every eye turned
What have I done?
Sweat on my back but it doesnt move
Soldier sleeping is wrong, doctor
The paintings on the wall are melting
But all I did was get a midnight snack
Time has seemed to have stopped
And each of the eyеs were looking at each othеr
Im frozen solid but cant feel the cold
I cant tell who that is in my closet
Sweat on my back but it doesnt move
Soldier sleeping is wrong, doctor
The paintings on the wall are melting
But all I did was get a midnight snack
(Mi-mi-mid-nigh-night
-sn-sna-snack)
(Mi-mi-mid-nigh-night
-sn-sna-snack)
And Im trying so hard to move
Till it finally lets me break free
Like that its all gone
As I see the sun rise from the horizon
Sweat on my back but it doesnt move
Soldier sleeping is wrong, doctor
The paintings on the wall are melting
But all I did was get a midnight snack
But all I did was get a midnight snack |
Its a reason I dont care about a call back
In most cases, I know I wouldnt even talk back
Im not your friend or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
On again, off again, energy
Fall on my face, right back on my two feet
Two cents? keep’em. Change don’t need’em
Frontline needs more options, less opinions
For example
How does one get past the fear of being nothing?
In the process pick enough of these pieces, to build something worth keeping
Past two taps on a timeline, these days it’s a fine line
Blue jays, blue faces, bird feeders on both sides
I mean I only have like 1 minute, to make you feel like I can do this
Before you cancel my rhythm, and throw your plate at my lyrics
No matter the topic, I speak in ways that trigger your spirit
Inspire your thinking, or remind you better days are coming
By the way, you should prolly replay this, save it in your playlist
Proof that you knew I was coming, long before I made it
Before I landed here from Libreville, pockets full of Yankee dreams
Accent thicker than no maskers in stadiums
I speak truth encrypted
It doesn’t really matter if you understand me
Non
C’est pas la fin du monde
Mais non, mais non, mais non...
This here is for whoever doesn’t need a lane
Don’t really care to explain
What’s for me, what’s for you, it’s all so vain
I’m trynna bring a thousand keys to the homeland
My ego left the conversation for a higher plane
They do whatever works for them to me it’s all the same
Please man give them my best, but just know
I’m not you’re friend
About me long before I made it
Im not your friend or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am |
Hey, leave a message
Hey, call me back when ya get this
Or when youve got a minute
We really need to talk
Wait, you know what?
Maybe just forget it
Cause by the time you get this
Your number might be blocked
Stay and blah blah blah
You just want what you cant have
No way
Ill call the cops
If you dont stop, Ill call your dad
And I hate to do this to you on your birthday
Happy birthday, by the way
Its not you, its me and all that other bullshit
You know thats bullshit
Dontcha, babe?
Im not your party favor
Look, now I know we coulda done it better
But we cant change the weather
When the weathеrs come and gone
Books dont make sеnse if you read em backwards
Youll single out the wrong words
Like you mishear all my songs
Youll hear stay and blah blah blah
You just want what you cant have
No way
Ill call the cops
If you dont stop, Ill call your dad
And I hate to do this to you on your birthday
Happy birthday by the way
Its not you, its me and all that other bullshit
You know thats bullshit
Dontcha, babe?
Im not your party favor |
I cant seem to focus
And you dont seem to notice Im not here
Im just a mirror
You check your complexion
To find your reflections all alone
I had to go
Cant you hear me?
Im not comin home
Do you understand?
Ive changed my plans
Cause I, Im in love
With my future
Cant wait to meet her
And I, Im in love
But not with anybody else
I just wanna get to know myself
I know supposedly Im lonely now
Know Im supposed to be unhappy
Without someone
Arent I that someone?
Id like to be your answer
Cause youre so handsomе
But I know better
Than to drive you home
Cause youd invite me in
And Id be yours again
But I, Im in love
With my future
And you dont know her
But I, Im in love
But not with anybody here
Ill see you in a couple years |
Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait til the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Count my cards, watch them fall
Blood on a marble wall
I like the way they all scream
Tell me which one is worse
Living or dying first
Sleeping inside a hearse
You say, Come over, baby
I think youre pretty
Im okay, Im not your baby
If you think Im pretty
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one |
Did you think Id show up in a limousine
Had to save my money for security
Got a stalker walking up and down the street
Says hes Satan, and hed like to meet
I bought a secret house when I was seventeen
Havent had a party since I got the keys
Had a pretty boy over, but he couldnt stay
On his way out made him sign an NDA
Yeah I made him sign an NDA
Cause I dont want him having - to say
You couldnt save me but you cant let me go
I can crave you but you dont need to know
Thirty under thirty for another year
I can barely go outside, I think I hate it herе
Maybe I should think about a new career
Somewhеre in Kuai where I can disappear
Like Im havin fun, Gettin older now
Didnt change my number, made him shut his mouth
At least I gave him something I can cry about
I thought about my future, but I want it now
You couldnt save me but you cant let me go
I can crave you but you dont need to know
Did I take it too far
Now I know what you are
You ran so hard
I saw stars
Think I took it too far
When I sold you my heart
Howd it get so dark
I saw stars
Star |
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way out
But you never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now
Oh, I hope some day Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I can’t find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home
Walking out of town
Looking for a better place
Something’s on my mind
Always in my head space
But I know someday Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home |
Sittin all alone
Mouth full of gum
In the driveway
My friends arent far
In the back of my car
Lay their bodies
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Theyll be here pretty soon
Lookin through my room
For the money
Im bitin my nails
Im too young to go to jail
Its kinda funny
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Maybe its in the gutter
Where I left my lover
What an expensive fate
My V is for vеndetta
Thought that Id feel better
But now I got a bеllyache
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind?
Wheres my mind? |
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way, out
But you never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now
Oh, I hope someday Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home
Walkin out of town
Lookin for a better place
Somethings on my mind
Always in my headspace
But I know someday Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin and bone
Hello, welcome home
Ah, ah, ah
Hello, welcome home |
Somethings in the air right now
Like Im losin track of time
Like I dont really care right now
But maybe thats fine
You werent even there that day
I was waitin on you
I wonder if you were aware that day
Was the last straw for me and I know
I sent you flowers
Did you even care?
You ran the shower
And left them by the stairs
Ooh-ooh-ooh, a-a-a-ayy
Thought you had your shit together, but damn, I was wrong
You aint nothin but a lost cause
And this aint nothin like it once was
I know you think youre such an outlaw
But you got no job
You aint nothin but a lost cause
And this aint nothin like it once was
I know you think youre such an outlaw
But you got no job
I used to think you were shy
But maybe you just had nothing on your mind
Maybe you were thinkin bout yourself all the time
I used to wish you were mine
But that was way before I realized
Someone like you would always be so easy to find
So easy
Hee, mm-mm-mm, mm
Gave me no flowers
Wish I didnt care
Youd be gone for hours
Could be anywhere
Ooh-ooh-ooh
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah
Thought you wouldve grown eventually, but you proved me wrong
You aint nothing but a lost cause
And this aint nothing like it once was
I know you think youre such an outlaw
But you got no job
You aint nothing but a lost cause
And this aint nothing like it once was
I know you think youre such an outlaw
But you got no job |
Throw his stone in and it will make the
Her collections getting so much bigger
She really thought you
If you ask her to
Tell me why Im dying
Tell me why Im lost in my mind, again
Just save me from this time, why ?
Tell me why, tell me why |
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Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait til the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
I’m gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
Count my cards, watch them fall
Blood on a marble wall
I like the way they all scream
Tell me which one is worse
Living or dying first
Sleeping inside a hearse
You say, Come over, baby
I think you’re pretty
Im okay, Im not your baby
If you think Im pretty
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
Crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make ’em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make ’em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one |
We’re turning around ourselves
Like a carousel, the horses never come close
You won’t hold my hand , too warm for yours
You said
Shiny eyes, confess yourself
Don’t lie, i can read your mind
Pay attention with my thoughts
Lately i’ve been praying the lord
Only my heart can know
I’m holding my breath
Tryna disappear
Maybe
I’ll met you there
And we’ll be “us” again
But please let me forget october
Never liked bare trees
Dont remind me its over
Erase me from the dark
Please let me forget October and make me wanna be live |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead? |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she reads all the lyrics
Shell pity the men I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Im the bad guy
Wall
Im the bad guy |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy...
Oh!
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me—
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me do
Hey, how you doin, lil mama? Lemme whisper in yo ear
Tell ya sumthin that you might like to hear
You got a sexy lil body, and yo booty look soft
Mind if I touch it, and see if it soft?
Naw, Im just playin, less you say I can
And Im known to be a real nasty man
And they say a closed mouth dont get fed
So baby girl, dont be scared
You heard what I said, we need to make our way to the bed
And you can start gettin ahead
You like to cut, give it to me, dat freaky stuff
Do it up, dont be scared if it gets too rough
Make a decision, we need to get down to business
So you can see what youve been missin
You might had some but you never had none like this
Just wait til I show you this
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy...
Oh!
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me—
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me—
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me—
Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me do
I dont trust nobody and nobody trusts me
Ill be the actress starring in your bad dreams
I dont trust nobody and nobody trusts me
Ill be the actress starring in your bad dreams |
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
متوقف شوید ، چه جهنمی صحبت می کنید؟ ها
نام زیبا من را از دهان خود خارج کنید
با و بدون آن یکسان نیستیم
با من صحبت نکن ، مثل این که می توانی احساس من را بدانی
برترین های جهان ، اما دنیای شما واقعی نیست
ایده آل دنیای شما
پس برو تفریح کن
واقعاً نمی توانستم کمتر مراقب باشم
و شما می توانید بهترین آنها را به من بدهید ، اما فقط بدانید
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
من نمی خواهم فشار دهم تا نام تو در کنار نام من قرار گیرد
ما در خطوط مختلف هستیم ، بنابراین من
می خواهم به اندازه کافی خوب باشم ، آنها بلوف من را صدا نمی کنند
چون من از پیدا کردن متنفرم
مقالات ، مقالات ، مقالات
در عوض شما قابل توجه نیستید
مصاحبه ، مصاحبه ، مصاحبه
وقتی آنها نام شما را می گویند ، من فقط گیج رفتار می کنم
به شما خوش گذشت؟
واقعاً نمی توانستم کمتر مراقب باشم
و شما می توانید بهترین آنها را به من بدهید ، اما فقط بدانید
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
من دوست شما نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر میکنم پس هستم
متاسفم
فکر نکنم اسم تو رو گرفتم
متاسفم
فکر نکنم اسم تو رو گرفتم
من دوست تو نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر می کنم ، بنابراین ، من هستم
من دوست تو نیستم
یا هر چیز دیگری ، لعنتی
شما فکر می کنید که شما مرد هستید
من فکر می کنم ، بنابراین ، من هستم |
I should have known
Id leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe
We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life, but life is far away from fair
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That Id fallen for a lie
And you were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise?
Now youll never see mе cry
Theres just no time to diе |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she reads all the lyrics
Shell pity the men I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy, duh
Im only good at bein bad, bad
I like when you get mad
I guess Im pretty glad that youre alone
You said shes scared of me?
I mean, I dont see what she sees
But maybe its cause Im wearing your cologne
Im a bad guy
Im, Im a bad guy
Bad guy, bad guy
Im a bad |
Tell me love is endless, dont be so pretentious
Leave me like you do
Woke up its a curse
Facedown in the dirts
Cant help this is hurts
Dont wanna a say words
Blood is running down
Never felt so numb
Deep down, I feel cursed
Hear that blade in your veins
My hearts tears down gone
I havent been in love
I walked on the new roads
She fuck me up, its worst
Touch my skin and make me jump
Give me a hope and lick me up
Destroy and fuck me up
If you wanna try....
BREAK!
İts motherfucin black list
HURT!
İts motherfucin Black Smith
MURK!
In the sunlight
SPOT!
We gon break up
WAKE!
From dreamlife
HATE!
I had a get enough
DeepSide!
Im a dead now |
Try not to lost your power I know we didn’t choose the change
You might not was lose your power but having it’s so strange
She said you were a hero you played the part but you ruined her in a year you swear you didn’t know I wonder why you didn’t ask she
Was sleeping in the clothes but she got to get to class and have could you will you only feel bad when they find out?
Take it all back try not to lose your power and I know we didn’t
Choose the change you might you might not wanna lose your power |
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Stop, what the hell are you talking about? Ha
Get my pretty name out of your mouth
We are not the same with or without
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Stop, what the hell are you talking about? Ha
Get my pretty name out of your mouth
We are not the same with or without
Dont talk bout me like how you might know how I feel
Top of the world, but your world isnt real
Your worlds an ideal
So go have fun
I really couldnt care less
And you can give em my best, but just know
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
I dont want press to put your name next to mine
Were on different lines, so I
Wanna be nice enough, they dont call my bluff
Cause I hate to find
Articles, articles, articles
Rather you remain unremarkable
Interviews, interviews, interviews
When they say your name, I just act confused
Did you have fun?
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am
Im not your friend
Or anything, damn
You think that youre the man
I think, therefore, I am |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was undеrwater
They called mе weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down |
Billie...
What do you want from me?
Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering?
What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me?
Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Come here...
Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly?
Youre payin?
Is the amount cleanin you out
Am I satisfactory?
Today, Im thinkin about
The things that are deadly
The way Im drinkin you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killin the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna еnd me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna–
What do you want from me?
Why dont you run from me?
What arе you wondering?
What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me?
Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Listen...
Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art
And make you a star and get you connected?
Ill meet you in the park
Ill be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start
That youd fall apart cause Im too expensive
Your talkll be somethin that shouldnt be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now
Callin security, keepin my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury your friend right now
For the debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
Cause I cant say no, no, I cant say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes wont close
And I cant say no, I cant say no
Careful...
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killin the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
What do you want from me?
Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering?
What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me?
Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go? |
Ive been watchin you for some time
Cant stop starin at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
You really know how to makе me cry
When you give mе those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes |
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didnt choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But havin’ its so strange
She said you were a hero, you played the part
But you ruined her in a year, dont act like it was hard
And you swear you didn’t know
No wonder why you didnt ask
She was sleeping in your clothes
But now shes got to get to class
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad
When they find out if you could take it all back
Would you?
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didnt choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But havin its so strange
I thought that I was special
You made me feel
Likе it was my fault
You were the dеvil, lost your appeal
Does it keep you in control
For you to keep her in a cage
And you swear you didn’t know
You said you thought she was your age
How dare you?
And how could you?
Will you only feel bad if it turns out
That they kill your contract?
Would you
Try not to abuse your power
I know we didnt choose to change
You might not wanna lose your power
But power isnt pain
Ooh
La-la-la-la-la, hmm
La-la-la-la-la-la, la-la |
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way out
But you never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now
Oh, I hope some day Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home
Walking out of time
Looking for a better place
Somethings on my mind
Always in my head space
But I know someday Ill make it out of hеre
Even if it takes all night or a hundrеd years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home |
Baby, I dont feel so good, six words you never understood
Ill never let you go, five words youll never say
I laugh along like nothings wrong, four days has never felt so long
If threes a crowd and two was us, one slipped away
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
Is there a reason were not through?
Is there a 12 step just for you?
Our conversations all in blue
11 heys
Ten fingers tearin out my hair
Nine times you nevеr made it there
I atе alone at 7, you were six minutes away
How am I supposed to make you feel okay
When all you do is walk the other way?
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
To spare my pride
To give your lack of interest an explanation
Dont say Im not your type
Just say that Im not your preferred sexual orientation
Im so selfish
But you make me feel helpless, yeah
And I cant stand another day
Stand another day
I just wanna make you feel okay
But all you do is look the other way, hmm
I cant tell you how much I wish I didnt wanna stay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay
I just kinda wish you were gay |
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Come here
Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly
Youre payin? Is the amount cleanin you out? Am I satisfactory?
Today, Im thinkin about the things that are deadly
The way Im drinkin you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killing the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go?
Listen
Keep you in the dark, what had you expected?
Me to make you my art and make you a star
And get you connected?
Ill meet you in the park, Ill be calm and collected
But we knew right from the start that youd fall apart
Cause Im too expensive
Its probably somethin that shouldnt be said out loud
Honestly, I thought that I would be dead by now
Calling security, keepin my head held down
Bury the hatchet or bury a friend right now
The debt I owe, gotta sell my soul
Cause I cant say no, no, I cant say no
Then my limbs all froze and my eyes wont close
And I cant say no, I cant say no
Careful
Step on the glass, staple your tongue
Bury a friend, try to wake up
Cannibal class, killing the son
Bury a friend, I wanna end me
I wanna end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna… end me
I wanna, I wanna, I wanna…
What do you want from me? Why dont you run from me?
What are you wondering? What do you know?
Why arent you scared of me? Why do you care for me?
When we all fall asleep, where do we go? |
I cant seem to focus
And you dont seem to notice
Im not here, Im just a mirror
You check your complexion
To find your reflections all alone
I have to go
Cant you hear me, Im not coming home
Do you understand, Ive changed my plans
Cause I, Im in love with my future
Cant wait to meet her
And I, Im in love
But not with anybody else
Just wanna get to know myself
I know supposedly Im lonely now
Know Im supposed to be unhappy without someone
But arent I someone
I Like
To be your answer
Cause youre so handsome
I know better than to drive you home
Cause youd invite me in
And Ill be yours again
But I , Im in love with my future
And you dont know her ooh
And I, Im in love
But not with anybody here
Ill see you in a couple years |
I shouldve known
Id leave alone
Just goes to show
That the blood you bleed is just the blood you owe
We were a pair
But I saw you there
Too much to bear
You were my life
But life is far away from fair
Was I stupid to love you?
Was I reckless to help?
Was it obvious to everybody else?
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death, or paradise?
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die
Theres just no time to die
Theres just no time to die
Theres just no time to die
I let it burn
Youre no longer my concern mm
Faces from my past return
Another lesson yet to learn
That Id fallen for a lie
You were never on my side
Fool me once
Fool me twice
Are you death
Or paradise
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die
No time to die, Hmm
No Time to die, ooh
Fool me once, fool me twice
Are you death or paradise
Now youll never see me cry
Theres just no time to die |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she rеads all the lyrics
Shell pity the mеn I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy, duh
Im only good at bein bad, bad
I like when you get mad
I guess Im pretty glad that youre alone
You said shes scared of me?
I mean, I dont see what she sees
But maybe its cause Im wearing your cologne
Im a bad guy
Im, Im a bad guy
Bad guy, bad guy
Im a bad |
White shirt now red, my bloody nose
Sleepin, youre on your tippy toes
Creepin around like no one knows
Think youre so criminal
Bruises on both my knees for you
Dont say thank you or please
I do what I want when Im wanting to
My soul? So cynical
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy
I like it when you take control
Even if you know that you dont
Own me, Ill let you play the role
Ill be your animal
My mommy likes to sing along with me
But she wont sing this song
If she rеads all the lyrics
Shell pity the mеn I know
So youre a tough guy
Like it really rough guy
Just cant get enough guy
Chest always so puffed guy
Im that bad type
Make your mama sad type
Make your girlfriend mad tight
Might seduce your dad type
Im the bad guy
Duh
Im the bad guy, duh
Im only good at bein bad, bad
I like when you get mad
I guess Im pretty glad that youre alone
You said shes scared of me?
I mean, I dont see what she sees
But maybe its cause Im wearing your cologne
Im a bad guy
Im, Im a bad guy
Bad guy, bad guy
Im a bad |
کمک ، من خودم را دوباره گم کردم
اما من تو را به یاد دارم
برنگرد ، ختم به خیر نخواهد شد
اما کاش به من می گفتی
عشق ما شش فوت زیر است
نمی توانم تعجب نکنم
اگر قبر ما از باران سیراب شد
آیا گلها گل می دهند؟
آیا گلها می توانند شکوفا شوند؟
از نو؟
لبهایم را پس بگیرید ، لمس خود را پاک کنید
این همه برای من بیش از حد است
مثل دود در هوا منفجر شود
چگونه می توان بی خیال مرد؟
عشق ما شش فوت زیر است
نمی توانم تعجب نکنم
اگر قبر ما از باران سیراب شد
آیا گلها گل می دهند؟
آیا گلهای رز می توانند شکوفا شوند؟
آنها در حال پخش صدای ما هستند
امشب ما رو دراز بکش
و همه این ابرها
ما رو به زندگی گریه کن
اما مثل یک شب سردی
شش فوت زیر
نمی توانم تعجب نکنم
اگر قبر ما از باران سیراب شد
شکوفه
شکوفه
از نو
کمک ، من خودم را دوباره گم کردم
اما من تو را به یاد دارم |
What is it about them?
I must be missing something
They just keep doing nothing
Too intoxicated to be scared
Better off without them
Theyre nothing but unstable
Bring ashtrays to the table
And thats about the only thing they share
Im in their secondhand smoke
Still just drinking canned Coke
I dont need a Xanny to feel better
On designated drives home
Only one whos not stoned
Dont give me a Xanny, now or ever
Can you check your Uber rating? Oh my god
Wakin up at sundown
Theyre latе to every party
Nobodys evеr sorry
Too inebriated now to dance
Morning as they come down
Their pretty heads are hurting
Theyre awfully bad at learning
Make the same mistakes, blame circumstance
Im in their secondhand smoke
Still just drinking canned Coke
I dont need a Xanny to feel better
On designated drives home
Only one whos not stoned
Dont give me a Xanny, now or ever
Please dont try to kiss me on the sidewalk
On your cigarette break
I cant afford to love someone
Who isnt dying by mistake in Silver Lake
What is it about them?
I must be missing something
They just keep doin nothing
Too intoxicated to be scared
Hmm, hmm
Hmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Come down
Hurting
Learning |
Ive been watching you for some time
Cant stop staring at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Falling into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
Ive been walking through a world gonе blind
Cant stop thinking of your diamond mind
Careful creature madе friends with time
He left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im being honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the golden, mm
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up I see
You with me
And you say
As long as Im here no-one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I can change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you.
I tried to scream,
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
It couldve been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there (right there, right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up I see
You with me
And you say
As long as Im here no-one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I can change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you.
If I knew it all then would I do it again
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then would I do it again,
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead? |
Ive been watchin you for some time
Cant stop starin at those ocean eyes
Burning cities and napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
Ive been walkin through a world gone blind
Cant stop thinkin of your diamond mind
Careful creature made friends with time
He left her lonely with a diamond mind
And those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes
No fair
You really know how to make me cry
When you give me those ocean eyes
Im scared
Ive never fallen from quite this high
Fallin into your ocean eyes
Those ocean eyes |
Thought I found a way
Thought I found a way out
But you never go away
So I guess I gotta stay now
Oh, I hope some day Ill make it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home
Walking out of time
Looking for a better place
Somеthings on my mind
Always in my head space
But I know someday Ill makе it out of here
Even if it takes all night or a hundred years
Need a place to hide, but I cant find one near
Wanna feel alive, outside I cant fight my fear
Isnt it lovely, all alone?
Heart made of glass, my mind of stone
Tear me to pieces, skin to bone
Hello, welcome home
Woah, yeah
Yeah, ah
Woah, woah
Hello, welcome home |
I lost my grandad my sisters can’t even see him
And if that was yo blood , why would you 6 feet deep em
Ever since you left this earth you left my momma grieving
We were supposed to come this summer , ain’t knew you was leaving
It was 2013 the first time that I seen him
The first time that you left my momma wasn’t eating
My mom not sleeping
My momma ain’t even dreaming
We was supposed to come this summer we ain’t know that you was leaving
But I wanna be alone, alone with you if that makes sense
Can’t even sleep at nights
Ain’t been the samе since my grandpa died
I’ve seen you oncе, can I see you twice ?
Want me to marry he won’t , see my wife
Now I’m thinking about your death I can’t even stop this feeling
You were peaceful when you died , you were okay with leaving
I think my mom okay , I’m thinking momma healing
Wanted me to do right I guess that’s what he seeking
I remember you was on the phone I didn’t even want to talk to you
I regret it every second I want to to talk to you
You always by my side I know you watching me
If no one gon be I know you proud of me
I lost my grandad my sisters can’t even see him
And if that was yo blood , why would you 6 feet deep em
Ever since you left this earth you left my momma grieving
We were supposed to come this summer , ain’t knew you was leaving
But I wanna be alone, alone with you if that makes sense |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
When I wake up I see
You and me
I got everything I wanted
When I wake up I see
You and me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I got everything I wanted
I got everything I wanted
Wanted wanted everything everything
You and me
I got everything I wanted |
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what youd think
And if Im bein honest
It mightve been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
Nobody cried
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like Im not just somebodys daughter
Coulda been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I dont wanna let anybody know
Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I dont wanna let em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, As long as Im here, no one can hurt you
Dont wanna lie here, but you can learn to
If I could change the way that you see yourself
You wouldnt wonder why you hear
They dont deserve you
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead? |
Bite my tongue, bide my time
Wearing a warning sign
Wait til the world is mine
Visions I vandalize
Cold in my kingdom size
Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Count my cards, watch them fall
Blood on a marble wall
I like the way they all scrеam
Tell me which one is worsе
Living or dying first
Sleeping inside a hearse
You say, Come over, baby
I think youre pretty
Im okay, Im not your baby
If you think Im pretty
You should see me in a crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one
Crown
Im gonna run this nothing town
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by
You should see me in a crown
Your silence is my favorite sound
Watch me make em bow
One by one by one
One by one by one |
Hmm-mm
Wake up and smell the coffee
Is your cup half full or empty?
When we talk, you say it softly
But I love it when youre awfully quiet
Hmm-mm, quiet
Hmm-mm
You see the piece of paper
Could be a little greater
Show me what you could make her
Youll never know until you try it
Hmm-mm
And you dont have to keep it quiet
And I know it makes you nervous
But I promise you, its worth it
To show em everything you kept inside
Dont hide, dont hide
Too shy to say, but I hope you stay
Dont hide away
Come out and play
Look up, out of your window
See snow, wont let it in though
Leave home, feel the wind blow
Cause its colder here inside in silence
And you dont have to keep it quiet
Yeah, I know it makes you nervous
But I promise you, its worth it
To show em everything you kept inside
Dont hide, dont hide
Too shy to say but I hope you stay
Dont hide away
Come out and play |